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I'm damn hungry now...and have not eaten any single thing yet...besides 'cakar ayam' and a glass of ice lemon tea...i'm so gonna be anorexic one day...my weight keeps goin down and down...lost a kilo for this mth despite having wholesome meals so far...
Nway i had lotsa fun last weekend..went for a bbq at east coast plus a wedding at johore on a typical sunday...instructors gathering...gosh a lot of ppl backed out for no absolute reasons..damn to those ppl...fancy making this bbq for them and they dun even giv a thought for it...wateva it is,i'm very happy to see most of my ex collegues there..though i still hold some grudges against the senior batches...hehehe...juz pure lazy to explain why...
Well,i really can't stand the fatigue..it's killing me...esp goin to johore by bus..it's hot plus those irritating ppl staring at us...like as if we're some sort of illegal foreigners...hahhaa...we knew we're in formal attires...and that doesn't mean we can't blend into their surroundings...hello?? it's arab...do i need to stress this word again...grand wedding...but no touch of class there...hehhee...why is tat so?? perhaps the ppl invited are so damn snobbish...juz because i dun look like one...okay an arab merchant...or sumthing like dat...but hey the food's not bad...malaysian-style??
Diff frm ours...
I still dun noe why...i kept asking myself...'wen are you goin to start a relationship?'It's bothering me...coz me still AM single for the past 20 yrs...and i wana break that chain...am i tat unattractive and charmless?? Cum on...at least one woman in this limited life..is like crazy over me or some sort...hahaha...i meant in a not literally way...i guess i sweet-talked too much...girls or women easily fell into my traps..but once they knew bout the real me...they fucked off frm my life...i have feelings too u noe...
Whoever you are...listening to my sorrows now...do give me a chance...i'll promise i can giv ya a good life..can't guarantee that...hehhee...i'll be a good husband...not the henpecked ones...endless commitment to one another...yeah rite...can i trust you in the 1st place?? Enjoyable and unforgettable sex lives...hmmm...but i need viagra one day wen my tool is no longer erectable...i wish i'm virile everyday...be a good,straight and thoughtful Muslim...i can't deny that...hahaha....
Can i picture myself now wif a loving wife and seven kids by my side...?? Or lawfully married to a woman whom i really loved at the age of 25?? Can i.....and can you??
Insyaallah...........
Music at the moment: Soledad-Heinz Winckler
