> airmata kasih
sshhh...i'm supposed to go for my workshop..but geez...i woke up..juz nice..1430hrs!!!
da nite before..slept freakg late ard 4+...sumore..this morning, the weather was so nice and cooling to make me carry on wif my making love sessions wif my pillow and blanket..haha..no wonder I was always kena called da 'wet blanket'!!!...hehe :p
sheesh..me really broke..unemployed...really feel bad..turning down frenz's offer...ajak kuar..tapi tak kuasa...haizzz...i really dun wana go out if me penniless...wat for? orang belanja mkn...kauz...muka aku nak letak maner...i really dun mind arr bayar balik..but then...aku really2 malu about it...aku ngah risau gilerr...my dad planng to stop werkg as taxi driver next yr...tak kan aku nak depend on my sis seh....sumore..my brader pulakss..haizz..long story....now I feel bad bout myself...me still studyg..still using parent's money...
duit simpanan aku...haizz..aku pun tak tau..melesap ke manerr...now i feel much happier wif my prepaid card..kalau takzz...duit bill aku jerr melambung tinggi nak mampuz...bulan nie..rezeki aku lum aderr...tusyen pun cam senyap gilerr...tak call-call aku pun...
planng to do relief teachg next yr...since most permanent teachers nak amik extra leaves...tapi my cca nyer aktiviti jerr dah belambak...who's to blame? me or them??
aku nyerr org suka chill ngan members..buat sumtg dat i like...me da type of person tak leh duk kat umah for long tyme..mesti tak sedap hati..though i can be considered a mummy's boy gitu..hahaa...biler time skola...aku relieve my freakg stress by my tarian....feel so gd wen u can get to shake ur booty wif ur frenzzz..hehe...so dats y...i feel happier wen i do all these stuffs..but yet complaing and whing to myself wen stuffs get onto my nerves....
*sumer org dah tau wen i start to piss off like mad...
So how??? i myself mcm at the crossroad gitu...somehow teringat this peribahasa thingy...sumtg like...bagai kerakap di atas batu,hidup enggan mati tak mahu...i noe it sounds a bit crappy...but i shall pasrah to the only GOD who has decided on my only lifetime...but i got to berikhtiar a bit arr to maintain all da gd things and bad things in my life!!! insyaallah...i really wana be a gd muslim juz like da rest...somehow or something refrains me frm doin so...nvm...i shall try to work on it.... :p
so sleep tite zahdan and juz wish dat everything will turn out well for tmr...kalau tak bangun....plss wake me up k..coz I got lotsa things to catch up with...hehehe...
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