> berdiri teguh...
hey...juz came back frm ma fav hometown..rembau..n.sembilan..it was blast but filled wif sadness and pain...seeing ma beloved atok who's not very well at the moment...haizzz..i'm glad he culd still recognise me despite his temporary memory failure..wokiess dat sounds bad...he's very cengkung and weak now..which made me feel painful all over...seeing a 'baby' who needs our care n concern at all tymes..i held him hands bringing him up the staircase...and he slowly went into da room he rarely visited..and slept there on da unfolded mattress soundly like a child...gosh...i was so goin to cry..i kept looking behind juz to see him...
i guess he's too stressed wif da family matters...esp his sons...neva have da concern at all to visit him...
how fuckingly irritating to see ur heartless pakciks...wen i recall da happy moments last tyme..it juz vanished into thin air...pointless to turn back tyme...told my mum me n sis prepared to take care of atuk n wan if they are able to come and stay wif us in s'pore...i really want them..coz i feel that we have not given enuff support besides money to my grandparents...come on lahh...22 yrs now and i'm still seeing them and i really dun want them to go that fast...i'm sorry if i'm being selfish or wat...but...i dun tink i have da right to sae that..i'm sorry
ma mum's da only daughter married to a s'porean man...and that's y we are so far frm them...we do still keep in touch..visit them once or twice a yr..but that's not enuff seriusly...coz we have other commitments too
God, i really hope You could prolong my grandparent's life..coz i think they deserve to spend more on earth wif their children...cucu cicit..and so on...Atuk and Wan, i really lurve ya alot..and pls forgive me if i have not been a gd cucu all this while...sorry for any mistakes if i had done any..and thank you so much for taking care of me wen mum left me wif ya two...mum used to tell me how i was so obedient...splashing water in the basin when Wan wants to bathe me...da org kampungs tot you were having cucu mat salleh...hahaa...its funny to listen to those stories...
insyaallah...we will meet again...no matter wat...
hmm...3 more days and that's dat people...hopefully everything goes well for me..dun wana be tersangkut at ma second year...ahaha...better not!!!
looking forward for ma chalet on 21dec and of course ma 3J Jr (26dec-02jan)...application forms still available..90 bux jerr...come lahhh!!! Fun giler punyerr..hahaha...
still train-lagged...gotta sleep soon....meetg horis and gad later...miss my best buds marn!!!
Music at the moment: Pergi Tak Kembali~Mawi
