'...just take me to the Mardi Gras...'

boo

2007-02-27T21:14:00.001+08:00

iris~awie

Kau masih kucintai… sungguh Dari awal dulu hingga hari ini
Aku pasti seyakinnya pasti
Kaulah satu untukku

Kau masih Dewi hatiku… sungguh
Biar sejuta tahun hilang di hari
Usah gusar sayang usah ragu
Aku milikmu

[Chorus]
Cintaku jika kau tanya pada bintang
Gemilauan sinar tak kan hilang
Akan aku sinari duniamu
Moga terpadam sangsi mu oh…

Cintaku jika kau lihat tingginya awan
Tak kan tercakar tinggi cintaku
Hanya hatiku tahu apa mahuku
Kan dunia ku pastinya milikmu
Hingga ke akhir hayatku

Kau masih ku cintai… sungguh
Dari hari pertama kau ku nikahi
Aku pasti seyakinya pasti
Engkau milik ku..

jiwang mood as usual for my darlingggg....

vainpot

2006-12-08T01:45:00.000+08:00

Hati ini, mahu tahu
Benarkah pungguk ku betul rindu
Katakan cintamu pada ku
Tunjukkan sayangmu jangan malu
Untuk menanda janjimu tidak palsu

Aku juga, ingin tahu
Di mana sampainya cinta dinda
Betulkah berada di jiwa
Atau pun cuma di bibir saja
Tunjuklah bukti cintamu sungguh suci

Sama-sama, ingin bukti
Tandanya menyinta satu hati

Janganlah kau menaruh bimbang
Hati ku tetap sayang
Jiwa ku kepunyaan abang
Itulah tanda cintaku tak bergoyang

Sama-sama, ingin bukti
Tandanya menyinta satu hati

Kasihmu dan sayangku sama
Cinta ku tak ke mana
Selalu memuja kau dinda
Itulah bukti cintaku takkan dua

Sama-sama, ingin bukti
Tandanya menyinta satu hati

Ingin Tahu-P. Ramlee

sweetheart

2006-12-07T01:58:00.000+08:00

"You"

You are all I need to get me through (get me through now baby)
Like a falling star I fell for you (I fell for you)

Sweet anticipation
It's giving me the butterflies
And my heartbeat's racing
Cos loving you is beautiful
When you're so irresistible

So don't stop (don't stop)
What you're doing baby
So good (so good)
And it drives me crazy
One touch (who-ho-hoo)
I'm in heaven, yeah
Cos loving you is so beautiful baby cos...

You are all I need to get me through (to get me through now)
Like a falling star I fell for you (I fell for you now)
You have taught me how to love
An angel sent from high above
Now I know that all I need is you

Cos I need you and you need me
And we'll always be together

Before I knew what love was
I always ended up in tears
It's just the way my world was
Until you walked into my life
It's something that I just can't hide

Real love (real love)
Has come my way
And I know (I know)
That it's here to stay
And it feels (who-ho-hooo)
Like never before
Cos loving you is so beautiful baby cos...

You are all I need to get me through (to get me through now)
Like a falling star I fell for you (I fell for you now)
You have taught me how to love
An angel sent from high above
Now I know that all I need is you

Cos I need you and you need me
And we'll always be together

Cos I need you and you need me
And we'll always be together

You're my inspiration
My world just seems a brighter place
I just wanna tell you
I've never ever felt this way
I've never thought I'd see the day

Real love (real love)
Has come my way
And I know (I know)
That it's here to stay
And it feels (who-ho-hooo)
Like never before
Cos loving you is so beautiful baby cos...

You are all I need to get me through (to get me through now)
Like a falling star I fell for you (I fell for you now)
You have taught me how to love
An angel sent from high above
Now I know that all I need is...

You are all I need to get me through (get me through now baby)
Like a falling star I fell for you (I fell for you)
You have taught me how to love
An angel sent from high above
Now I know that all I need is you

~s club 7~

lambat setapak

2006-12-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

by poshdude83

by poshdude83

by poshdude83

love my bitch

2006-12-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

heran TAK heran

2006-12-01T00:07:00.001+08:00

nak kata aku ni bijak..
TAK
nak kata aku ni baik mcm malaikat..
TAK
nak kata aku ni mentel..
TAK
nak kata aku ni playboy..
TAK
nak kata aku ni 'pembuih'
TAK
nak kata aku ni jantan dayus
TAK
nak kata aku ni SS
TAK
nak kata aku ni kuang asam
TAK
nak kata aku ni hebat
TAK

nak kata aku ni ******
hmmmmm...
mungkin kot!

main angin

2006-11-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

last paper to go..TMR!!! not happy exactly coz there's loads of stuffs coming up!! not complaining or even whining..but i have to face it..of course not alone sia...dats's da fact...

still wondering y this matter could happen again..not once but many times...tryg to figure out all da reasons that i can find..but none inside my head. Hmmm...mebbe it's my fault or da other half..not referring to anyone out there but i tink it must be my devilish half..swear it marnn! watever it is i'm still waiting.......

freaking extremely happy coz sem 1 finally ended...not with a bang though...looking back over 2006 made me realised that there's still hope to change and move on...recalling the heartbreaking moments with my late atuk's deathbed...i really miss him alot! i miss having 'complete' grandparents...cuma tinggal wan sahaja...and sadly she din wana stay with us here coz it's too far frm her homestay. to me its crappy...but i believe she had her own reasons to do so. i wana go back kampg but sadly mum and sis takda duit and work leave. gosh...is dat what you promise me to take care of wan till her dying days...darn!!!

i'm tired of everything
except one thing
that is called
LOVE
from you & God

to those yang suka 'berangan' or sumtg like 'main angin'
i'm having one rite now
he's sitting beside me
wanting to share my probs

but he's slowly vanishing into thin air..
save him plssssss

langweilig

2006-11-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

remember zahdan....

your blog have to be vetted before submitting!!!

whatever

settled,
zahdan's devilish half

no pain no gain

2006-11-20T02:28:00.000+08:00

hehe...i guess my blog is full of cobwebs now....though alot of things had passed through my life...faced lots n lots of challenges..alhamdulilah i've made it so far..5 mths full of happiness, anger & sadness..not forgettg fakeness in some ppl i've met along da way!!!

wen i looked myself again in da mirror..i asked myself..have i changed??? gradually or too drastically? i desire what I want to be...i want to be different..but of course not trying to receive unnecessary attentions..but am I blamed for all these? gd frenz hate me for not being there..wen I need my own space to be alone...asking God what exactly wrong wif me? am i stuck in both worlds? or am i just ignoring the fact that it had existed in me since I was born...thanx to who?? parents for creating me in this way or myself for the moulding processes dari kecik sampai besar..

wen i need the love, im not given! wen I give love, not appreciated! wen i meet da opposites, i'm blessed!!! hahaa...something will spark and i'm amazed by it. And i feel so thankful for it..hahaa...yelahh tuu....

glad it was over for melayu.com.sg..nothing much I could help besides make-up and publicity..but at least I was thanked for the efforts...great to b wif da whole dsl peeps again..after so many mths menjauhkann diri setelah SAM!! insyaallah if there's any gd production coming up...i might consider and priortise it..I juz missed acting so much!!!!

today my fone went dumb and mute...PERIOD!

my can't-be-bothered-to-study-but-i-want-to-grad mood had struck me the minute I woke up at 255pm...

2006-06-12T03:58:00.000+08:00

shs

a&w

2006-06-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

http://community.webshots.com/user/poshdude83

check out my kL pics
(01-040606)

baikk siollsss...
enjoy to da max...

~060606~
something not to be missed

Geburtstag gestern

2006-05-17T09:32:00.000+08:00

Mann. Gestern war mein 23. Geburtstag. .celebrated mit Horis und Gaddafi am Seoul Garten. Es war eine sumptous Mahlzeit. Ich muß Mann sagen.
Der Kuchen war so klein und nett. Er hat eine Abbildung der Daffy Ente. Danke soviel Kerle! 23 hat eine Menge Bedeutungen zu mir. Zeit, ein besserer Mann zu sein und so weiter.

clubbings nicht mehr und es sind Zeit, zu rauchen mich zu beendigen schätzen daß. .hmmm nicht für einen Gecken wie mich recht klingt.Es ist Art von traurigem, abgesehen von dieser glücklichen Welt zu gehen und ich muß an meine Zukunft auch denken. Es ist schade, als eins Ihres besten Freunds Ihren nur Geburtstag vergaß. Gedanke des Dankens er in der Anzeige. .but kann ich nicht einfach gestört werden. Für was sind Freunde? Kommen Sie und gehen Sie an jederzeit.

Myra. Ich schätze, daß Sie solch ein guter Freund zu mir allem dieses während seit Sekundärschulezeiten gewesen sind. Ich schätze es wirklich lieb. Wir schauen gutes zusammen Recht? Hahaha… Dank wieder für das süsse Gespräch gestern. Ich wünsche Ihnen alles beste Glück, wenn ich Ihren guten Mann finde. Vertrauen Sie mir. Sie können es tun lieb!

Das ist alles für heute. Amüsieren Sie sich heute. .and, das ich nicht zur Partei warten kann ein weiteres Mal, bevor ich vorangehe, um in der Zeit 3 Motte zu schulen. Jahr 3 in NUS und in dem ist das!

Simply love Deutsch...Selamat lahh berfikir yahhh!!!
Hmmm thinking of doin German 2...wif ma beloved frenzz...

Tschus...

mastubation is not OKAY!

2006-05-06T16:55:00.001+08:00

one more week to final paper...

2006-04-29T02:03:00.000+08:00

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Muhammad Zahdan Bin Abbas
Birthday:	16 May '83
Birthplace:	Toa Payoh Hospital
Current Location:	East
Eye Color:	hmm, black/brown
Hair Color:	i should say copperish
Height:	173
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	Malay/Minang/Indian
The Shoes You Wore Today:	flip-flop at 3 bux
Your Weakness:	too talkative
Your Fears:	flying cockroaches
Your Perfect Pizza:	hawaiian
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	graduate asap...get a working life soon in da freaking LAB!
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	F* lahhh**
Thoughts First Waking Up:	morning glory's over yet?
Your Best Physical Feature:	hahaaa....my thick luscious LIPS! sexaayyy...
Your Bedtime:	after 1 or 2 am..
Your Most Missed Memory:	sec school dayzz
Pepsi or Coke:	yikes...non-gassy plss
MacDonalds or Burger King:	BK
Single or Group Dates:	hmm..groupies
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	choc
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	yupz
Do you Swear:	sometimes
Do you Sing:	duhh...in da bathroom
Do you Shower Daily:	like duhhh
Have you Been in Love:	duhhh to da freaking max!
Do you want to go to College:	been in one oredi..
Do you want to get Married:	hmmm 27?
Do you belive in yourself:	sometimes...
Do you get Motion Sickness:	yupzz on da plane..or boat
Do you think you are Attractive:	in da eyes of da beholder
Are you a Health Freak:	i smoke
Do you get along with your Parents:	of course...
Do you like Thunderstorms:	no way...
Do you play an Instrument:	recorder in pri and sec sch...wanting to learn how to play guitar/drums
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	hmmmmmmmmm
In the past month have you Smoked:	yeshhh everyday every seconds
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nopes...drug-free
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	sadly no..too bz wif stuffs
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yupz..
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	blueekksss
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	this mth yeshhh
In the past month have you been on Stage:	feb/march arrr for tarian
In the past month have you been Dumped:	rejected!!!
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	i wishhh
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	i'm a gd boy!
Ever been Drunk:	once
Ever been called a Tease:	worse than tat
Ever been Beaten up:	heheee...
Ever Shoplifted:	sadly no...
How do you want to Die:	peacefully...on da bed
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	chem analyst cum fashion designer cum part-time dancer
What country would you most like to Visit:	malaysia..ma hometown
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	similar...not too 'wild' colors plsss
Favourite Hair Color:	anitg
Short or Long Hair:	long..i likeee
Height:	obviously not taller than me lahh
Weight:	dun care...
Best Clothing Style:	retro like...not too minah-ish arr...nice to look at!! hehee
Number of Drugs I have taken:	soft or hard? state clearly lahh...panadol pun drug perrr
Number of CDs I own:	too lazy to count
Number of Piercings:	none....SADLY!!!!!
Number of Tattoos:	don wan arr...nanti tak leh kahwin..blueekksss
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	let bygones be bygones arr...nasi dah jadik bubur..dah tak kuasa lagik arr...
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

buaian

2006-04-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

Cradle

I will rock you like a baby, I will,
Cradled in my arms,
I will keep you safe from danger,
Shelter you from harm...

There will never be another lover,
Who treats you like I do,
We can drift into forever,
On a love thats made for two...

Dont you ever say this loves not special,
Dont you ever think it’s not essential...
Baby...

I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Agaisnt the world...
Baby...

I am always dreamin of you,
Hopin you are dreamin of me,
I could never live,
One day without your love...

I will kiss you like an angel, baby,
Cradled in my wings,
I will take you up to heaven,
Show you precious things...

If you promise that you love me,
If you promise that you care,
I will be here for you always,
And forever this I swear...

Dont you ever say this loves not special,
Dont you ever think it’s not essential...
Baby...

I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Agaisnt the world...
Baby...

I am always dreamin of you,
Hopin you are dreamin of me,
I could never live one day,
Without your love...

Though you say you want a love,
But you don’t think you believe it,
Just open up your heart,
And you know you will recieve it...
Oh baby...

Baby...
Dont you ever say this loves not special, oh
Dont you ever think it’s not essential...
Baby...

I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Agaisnt the world...
Baby...

I was only dreamin of you,
Hopin you were dreamin of me,
I could never live one day,
Without your love...

I was only, I was only, I was only thinkin of you...
I was only, I was only, I was only thinkin of you...
I was only, I was only, I was only thinkin of you...
I was only, I was only, I was only thinkin... oh baby

discontinued

2006-04-13T13:05:00.000+08:00

hati sape yang tak luka melihat sesuatu yg tidak harus kulihat?

arrghhhh...remuk dibuatnyer...
jawapannye senang..lupakan...kau ingat betapa senang ingin melupakan sesuatu begitu sahaja

chemystery

2006-04-06T17:17:00.000+08:00

Top 10 Reasons Why Chemistry Is A Difficult Course

10. Big, long words like acetylsalicylic acid, colligative, stoichiometry and metalloids.

9. Wacky acronyms like HPLC and DNA (that's high pressure liquid chromatography and deoxyribonucleic acid).

8. There's a whole lot of math.

7. Chemistry is like a whole other language.

6. It is VERY comprehensive.

5. There's a whole lot of math.

4. It makes you think critically about things that don't make sense.

3. You have a preconceived notion that it is going to be tough.

2. There's a whole lot of math AND we do some things that your math teachers told you never to do.

1. It crosses over into subjects such as history, biology, physics, literature, English, art and geology. Oh, yeah... did I mention there's a lot of math in it too?

http://www.mrflint.com/chem/topchem.html

kekek siollssss and mengarut to da max!!!! F*** the world!

amin

2006-03-28T18:56:00.000+08:00

xie xie nie

2006-03-17T20:42:00.000+08:00

How to say 'Can i get to know you?' in Mandarin.....

Ask Ain

Priceless beb...

screwd up 'goldfish'

2006-03-15T14:12:00.000+08:00

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sape lagik?

2006-03-14T11:14:00.000+08:00

Presenting,

(Cinta Tiada Ganti)

(Berhenti Berharap)

Siti,Siti,Siti!!!!

hahahahahaha........

enjoy da vids...i lurve it lahh!!!

haizzz...

2006-03-10T10:50:00.000+08:00

Kuala Lumpur 6 Mac - Penyanyi popular, Siti Nurhaliza hari ini mengakui hatinya sudah dimiliki. "Memang sekarang Siti berkawan dengan seseorang. Siti tidak mahu orang cakap Siti menipu atau berbohong,'' katanya. Ia adalah pengakuan pertama Siti, 26, setelah kisah percintaannya dikaitkan dengan seorang ahli korporat, Datuk Khalid Mohd. Jiwa yang juga dikenali sebagai Datuk K.

Penyanyi pujaan ramai itu berkata demikian pada majlis Bersarapan Bersama Bintang-Bintang anjuran Star Movie, Astro, di Hotel Ritz Carlton di sini hari ini.

Malah, kata Siti beliau berharap semua pihak memahami siapakah gerangan orang tersayang yang dimaksudkannya.

Bagaimanapun, buat masa ini, Siti memberitahu, dia belum bersedia mendedahkan siapakah gerangan jejaka yang berjaya menawan hatinya itu.

Mengakui dirinya kini semakin matang, Siti ternyata semakin terbuka membicarakan tentang cinta.

Siti sekarang dah cukup matang dan dewasa. Jadi Siti rasa tak salah Siti memperkatakannya kerana Siti tahu peminat di luar sana ingin mengetahuinya.

"Manusia biasalah apabila semakin dewasa perasaan sayang menyayangi dan cinta memang ada. Itu tak dapat lari daripada kehidupan sebenar kita,'' kata Siti.

Siti juga berkata, dia akan mengumumkan tentang perkahwinannya apabila tiba waktu kelak.

"Jangan risau Siti akan beritahu semua orang jika sampai masanya. Siti tak boleh beritahu sekarang semata-mata untuk puaskan hati semua orang."

"Orang nak berteka-teki atau anggap apa saja terpulang kepada mereka, tunggu sahaja kerana sampai waktunya Siti akan mengumumkan segalanya,'' katanya.

Program tersebut diadakan sempena Anugerah Academy ke-78 di samping ulang tahun Astro ke-10.

Dalam pada itu, Siti turut menafikan tentang gosip perkahwinannya yang dikatakan akan diadakan dalam masa terdekat ini.

"Gosip tersebut tidak benar sama sekali. Siti belum terfikir lagi akan kahwin dalam masa terdekat ini,'' kata Siti lagi.

Sambil menyifatkan segala gosip suka dan duka yang hadir di dalam dirinya sebagai satu cabaran hidup, Siti memberitahu perkara tersebut membuatkannya lebih tabah dan kuat.

Seramai 18 penghibur hadir memeriahkan majlis tersebut bersama-sama 60 pelanggan bertuah Astro, menonton Anugerah Academy secara langsung.

Antara yang hadir ialah Nana AF1, Misha Omar, Azizan Nin, Ashraf Sinclair dan Zahid AF2

mawi world

2006-03-10T10:46:00.000+08:00

Menyanyi kerana gembira
Menyanyi kerana sedih
Menyanyi kerana rindu
Aduh siapa dapat membaca...
Hatiku saat ini

Menari kerana melayan
Menari kerana sunyi
Menari kerana kasih
Ada di depan masih juga tak mengerti

Gerangan apa buat ku kemari
Dalam temasya ku memencil diri
Darilah jauh asyik memandangnya
Sekalipun dia masih tak perasan...ku disini
Oh.....
Lagu jiwa
Bukan lagu mengadu nasibku
Lagu cinta
Bukan lagu meratap hidupku

Hanya nak menyatakan
Tuah dan untung badan
Diuji hebat cinta sehebat begini... hebat begini

Lagu Jiwa Lagu Cinta~Mawi & M.Nasir

tingkah dah langkah

2006-03-08T15:25:00.000+08:00

People of the world

Come and chill wif us..da ILSA-ians....

A great nite to remember...

Presenting,

Langkah dan Tingkah I
by Sri Mahligai
Saturday, 11 March 2006, 8pm
UCC Courtyard

This group of young musicians in Singapore 's Malay music scene transcends cultural boundaries with their unique signature style, playing traditional Malay tunes, reggae and samba.

Langkah dan Tingkah II
by NUS Ilsa Tari, Sriwana and ERA Dance Theatre
Saturday, 11 March 2006, 9pm
UCC Courtyard

Catch this half hour special of Malay dances, featuring contemporary and traditional works and live music accompaniment by Sri Mahligai.

Jgn tak support ehhhhh....

dannyBoY

natural

2006-03-07T10:57:00.000+08:00

fanning my hot sweats away frm my weak body...
struugling hard to get to to his strong shoulders...
turning movements ala silat yg tak menjadi langsung
fans broken bit by bit...
lost the whole bracelet package at da poor bustop...
tossing n turning alone yeshhh alone on da yellow bed..
fart smells
eyebags, unshaved, spinning tomatohead..
can't-be-bothered spectro test questions...
0800 hrs...pantat!

german.....1200hrs

german girlfren: 25++++ years time down the road

german trip: dream on...

german soccer tournament: very soooonnnnn....yeah!!!!

*s club 7 crazy mode now

silent fart

2006-02-28T16:27:00.000+08:00

wen was i ur buddy ma dear??? me ur best bud?? hahaha..no way...tak terlintas pun di fikiran ku...i hate ur guts and ur extreme judgement on ma frenz...i hate you bitch!!!
u tink i regard you as my everlasting fren that will be by ma deathbed??? dream on...
u were freaking scared to lose da both of us juz because we went to the army...u worried that we will have our own gurlfrenz and tend to forget you da rest of our lives?? you neva even care about giving us some pathetic space for us to breathe?? who are you in da first place bitch?? i had to give in so much to make you cheerful...and dread on wif disheartening moments in ma freaking life...have u ever tot bout that gerl?? have you.....

you know wat??

i still love you lahhh....bitch....
juz another hate blog to you...
you know who u are..hehee....

aper yg aku merepek siakkkkk

2006-02-28T11:25:00.000+08:00

nothg to bitch about...hahaa...i'm surprised ba maself...sleeping in hostel filled wif horny bastards scared da shit outta me...hahaa...lovely gathering wif ma jahanamz ydae was a cool one....esp daya and asiri...walau..miss them so blardy much arrr

watched a freakg vid clip dat makes me puke suddenly...ya shuld now y...it was grosslahhh..popular vid in those searches arr...
pity dat gal..should have safekept her hp properly next tyme...it's better not to have IT at all..hehee....juz a plain remark by me.

yupzzz...11 march peeps...my 'fan' dance...heard that we guys have to carry da fan too...ohh goshh it's a no-no for me lahh..but overall i lurve da new dance choreography...it's simply refreshing!!! yeah it's at UCC courtyard...8pm onwards...I have to make this publicity darn big lahhh...get ur arses there!!!

felt emo last few days...very badly...juz those stinging moments that wana make u cry your heart out...nobody to rely on at those moments...so i had to be alone and face it like a man...yupzz...it works...it was difficult at first..but nahhh buat aperr merungut over such a trivial matter kann...once happened and that's all..it wun repeat back...i guess...

sometimes i felt useless in kg....pas makan...terus tido...and wondering where da rest of ma male cuzzins...helpg so semangatly wif da elderlys...yeah..aku tido berdengkur!!! itulahhh nama org singapura...pemalas to da max...always using da age to reason out wif ma parents...I am 23 and its time for me to releks one corner!!! i had enuff doin all those unneccessary chores that not supposed to be done by me and me and me...mana tak kene pandang serong...juz wana get settled down and free frm those tamparan makchicks-makchicks yg kepo nak mampz...sapelahh aku yg sebenar?
rajin? baik? tak isap rokok nyer org? lu releks sua...

hahaa...so many updates but yet tak berisi langsung....aku sendiri pun tak paham....(i have to go for extensive eng courses one of thse days...my resume will be sucky soon)...

hehehe...pretty boy is here...at dungn...tak sangkan member yg menghilang begitu lama sudah pun muncul kat dpan btg idung aku...hehee...i'm not being faggot here k...he's juz pretty jerrr...masculine pretty nak katakannn...muahahahahah!!!!

gtg for german lect...darnnnN!!!

pembastard haram

2006-01-26T17:38:00.001+08:00

meetg wif ma ilsa exco and not forgettg da ever bubbly Ms Pearlyn..kecoh to da max!!!

She's excellent marn taking care of our welfare but then hey, i really dun wana stress herself out...i knew we have to work hard to popularise ourself and i really believe this new exco of us can do it!! yeah....dun care wat others tink of me or whoever...i juz wana transform Ilsa into a mat-minah society...Yeah rite..hahaa...no offense marn!!

well...those peeps who's been secretly reading at ma pathetic blog...juz wana tell ya honestly that tarian's not for wimps and sissys...it's an art marn..unless u dun noe how 2 appreciate it...

it's something u can look forward to in ur life...like singing, jamming, drawing, exhibitioning urself..muahahaha....something more than that!!!

i'm not propaganda-ing bout tarian here...but to those who had background in it or willing to learn...do join us lahh!! once a week per...kiter bukan politikfull society k...not a club punn...

so...dats all basically...

well, gad's beside me...kepo-ing wat i'm writing here..hahahhaa...

where's horis???

hmmm wondring wat's he up to??

asiri...as usual....hahahahahahahaaaa...............

lost in daya-land....

jgn marah!!! kwang3

*bitchy-mode as alwayssss

kengkawan

2006-01-26T17:38:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really dun understand the real meaning of friend...

isit come n go at anytime?
or juz a 'hi and bye' friend?

or stay wif ya all da way....thru ups and downs! neva say die one lahhh...

my version of 'friend'

da only one who is not a 'pembastard' in your entire life

hard to find one rite?

color & vision

2006-01-22T02:56:00.000+08:00

all this while i really tot that my left glass lens was dirtied

but i was wrong lahhh

my left eye vision is blurred!!!
i check out da toilet lites by covering my left first...damn bloody bright!!
the other....gosh...less bright...

gosh i'm paranoid now..
squintg hard to check wat i'm typing now..
thanxxx to da contact lens...

freaking overuse it!!!
arrrgghhhhhhh

sigh...

miss that female M.O!!!
hahaa...mentel siakk aku!!!

p.s: miss dayang too...cheeky smile!

Music at the moment: Meteor Garden Theme~F4

kongratz

2006-01-22T02:49:00.000+08:00

macam pernah kulihat

dimana ye??

cheyyy..hahahaa...kauzzz....
mendada sehh...
turning 'wild' gilerrr
can't wait for swimwear!!!
takdelahhhhhh....

nice shawl there...
huh?

myra's catwalking on the runway...??!!

210106
Glam Quest '06
F30
Tampine Mall 4th Floor

glam siollsss....
tak lehh ang siollss

congrats for entering da semis...wishh ya all da best dear
proud of ya..tak sangka u had those sexiest moments infrt of da judges..
hahaaa

so wats da 1st prize??

one nite stand wif one of da judges?

Music at the moment: Bukan Aku Tak Cinta~Iklim

sheessh part two

2006-01-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

kita hanya bersabar sahaja....

melihat kenyataan

yg dahulunya kabur dari pandangan mata

tetapi bersinar pada hari yg malang

sedih dibuatnyer...
luka di hati tidak mungkin dapat diubati dengan segera

aku harapkan tuntutan doa darimu

agar kamu masih sayang pada sahabat-handaimu

es geht

2006-01-19T13:10:00.000+08:00

Guten Tag!!!

it's bitching tyme...wohoho...

darn i lurve it man...esp wen ppl wana backstab me wif all those lies thingy..keep it up marn...nak bedek tak kene tempat..fuck you marn!! haha...next tyme tink of a great hideous plan on how to freaking lie without any failures in it...ni bodoh...bedek pasal aku..puas mengumpat pasal aku..abis bilang members..selamat members tak mkn kwn punyer...sape2 yg terasa...pandai2 lahh mintak maaf...aku tak jamin...pasal ajal maut sumer ngan Tuhan...hahahaa...

asal aku selalu dibabitkan ngan bukan2?? aku tau aku ni kan LOUD...kecoh..so wats da freaking prob?? do i disturb u fuckers anyway..i had enuff of all these nonsense stuffs..i neva even care to disturb ur freaking life..and y bother???? aku ader tickle ur freaking genitals...till u wana piss me off silently...keep it up once again....bloody bitches...

this is not hate bloggie or wat...i'm juz listing my fury wif this poor computer..dah tak lehh tahan lagik dokk...well i guess..avoiding those TERASA people will b da best option for me...aku tak kacau kau..kau pun jgn kacau aku pulakzz..kalau nak sangat...nahh aku bagi kau tamparan negri sembilan aku...Hahahahaha...

ALL PEOPLE are hypocrites....incldg me and you all!!
dun u guys deny that........

and if u tink ur not...
dats bullshit!!!!

Happy bdae to my larling...hahaa...Hidayah and my dearest mumsy...Happy 21st and 52nd!!!
hows da food?? hahaa...so kecutlahh tgk mamats kat p.ris smlm..kwang3...
so many pressies arr..she got..so blardy jeles lahhh...
nanti aku nyer turn..kau paham2 arr...

hope u enjoy ur big dae...chill wif ur beloved ones always...dun forget me yahhh...will always cherish da bad n gd moments together...yelahh..selalu gaduh over trivial stuffs...be decisive k dearr!!! hehee...

hope we all be gd muslimins n muslimahss one fine dae..still grasping da ropes of becoming one sia..insyaallah...

have a gd dae ahead peeps...

*da above paragraphs may be or may not be irrelevant...Just take it as a joke!

Danke, gut...

takde musik siakkk...duhhh aku kat lib...kwang3...sheeshhhh!!!

moving on...

2006-01-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

schling time tmr...
but gona skip chem lect all da way!!!..hahaa...goin back to kg again..miss my mum lahh...dah lah duk kat sana since 4jan...celebratg raya haji for da 1st tyme there...hopefully gerek giler wiff cuzz n anak sedara..hahaaa

ydae da bdae bbq thingy was cool n happeng..though aku tak mkn byk kat sana..kenyang giler makan nasi ayam black pepper kat ya salam wif chip n gang...lots of peeps came for da bbq..surprisingly..ahaha...sad..fez n rawi tak dtg...haizzz...issues sia!!!

so happy belated 21st bdae again frm me to shikah..hehee...malulahhh....

3J Jr was exhilirating marn..much better than da past i must sae...wif diff people..diff karenah...lame jokes smacked on ur face...jatuh 3kali...damn...paiseh gilerr doksss...hahaa...315 case...thanx to azmeer arr..i'll remember dat marnnn...i lurve da 3JC kids...aisyah...sape lagi ehh yg budak luar join 3J...hmmm...ohh yahh...da 3 sistas in my foster family...esp da second one..hahaaa...oooppss...takot org marah pulak...hahahaa

so many things happened arr in 3J..malas nak list out..juz let it remain in my heart...

things to do or get in da yr of 2006:

1) get laid (hahaha....)
2) earn some cash pllssss
3) frizz my hair (biler siak)
4) hot pants
5) bike license (hahahaa...dats a lie)
6) digi cam
7) bursary (>2K..tamak siakkk)
8) better muslim (that's a bloody must marn)
9) pass wif merit (pelan2 kayoh...insyaallah bole punyerr)
10) ehem2...

kau rasa aper ya aku rasa kau rasa aku bole dapat tak...aku tak rasa tapi kau rasa aper yang aku rasa..bagus arrr!!!

Music at the moment: Untuk Selamanya~Siti Nurhaliza

last goodbye

2006-01-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

3 jan 2006 6.40am

u took ur very last breath...

i wasnt there to witness that...but i'm proud and happy to bring you to da place where u should belong to...

i was da only s'porean kid to be there since mum dad n sis can't be there on time...

i lurve you alot atuk and may u rest in peace...

semoga Allah mencucuri rahmatmu....

cocked up

2005-12-24T01:58:00.000+08:00

0.02 topped up!!!

FUCKING MCQs...

complacency

try harder next time...many times but it doesn't work anymore...

I lurve u atuk
U can do it
we all will meet ya again..
pls do not leave us soon...

Music at the moment: Kerana Kau~Misha Omar

berdiri teguh...

2005-12-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

hey...juz came back frm ma fav hometown..rembau..n.sembilan..it was blast but filled wif sadness and pain...seeing ma beloved atok who's not very well at the moment...haizzz..i'm glad he culd still recognise me despite his temporary memory failure..wokiess dat sounds bad...he's very cengkung and weak now..which made me feel painful all over...seeing a 'baby' who needs our care n concern at all tymes..i held him hands bringing him up the staircase...and he slowly went into da room he rarely visited..and slept there on da unfolded mattress soundly like a child...gosh...i was so goin to cry..i kept looking behind juz to see him...

i guess he's too stressed wif da family matters...esp his sons...neva have da concern at all to visit him...how fuckingly irritating to see ur heartless pakciks...wen i recall da happy moments last tyme..it juz vanished into thin air...pointless to turn back tyme...told my mum me n sis prepared to take care of atuk n wan if they are able to come and stay wif us in s'pore...i really want them..coz i feel that we have not given enuff support besides money to my grandparents...come on lahh...22 yrs now and i'm still seeing them and i really dun want them to go that fast...i'm sorry if i'm being selfish or wat...but...i dun tink i have da right to sae that..i'm sorry

ma mum's da only daughter married to a s'porean man...and that's y we are so far frm them...we do still keep in touch..visit them once or twice a yr..but that's not enuff seriusly...coz we have other commitments too

God, i really hope You could prolong my grandparent's life..coz i think they deserve to spend more on earth wif their children...cucu cicit..and so on...Atuk and Wan, i really lurve ya alot..and pls forgive me if i have not been a gd cucu all this while...sorry for any mistakes if i had done any..and thank you so much for taking care of me wen mum left me wif ya two...mum used to tell me how i was so obedient...splashing water in the basin when Wan wants to bathe me...da org kampungs tot you were having cucu mat salleh...hahaa...its funny to listen to those stories...
insyaallah...we will meet again...no matter wat...

hmm...3 more days and that's dat people...hopefully everything goes well for me..dun wana be tersangkut at ma second year...ahaha...better not!!!
looking forward for ma chalet on 21dec and of course ma 3J Jr (26dec-02jan)...application forms still available..90 bux jerr...come lahhh!!! Fun giler punyerr..hahaha...

still train-lagged...gotta sleep soon....meetg horis and gad later...miss my best buds marn!!!

Music at the moment: Pergi Tak Kembali~Mawi

growing up

2005-12-08T19:11:00.000+08:00

cute kan?

memories

goin strong...

S.M.I.L.E!

Music at the moment: Seri Langkat~Jamal Abdillah & Amelina

E lang

2005-12-06T17:10:00.000+08:00

bitch Pronunciation Key (bch)
n.

1. A female canine animal, especially a dog.
2. Offensive.
1. A woman considered to be spiteful or overbearing.
2. A lewd woman.
3. A man considered to be weak or contemptible.
3. Slang. A complaint.
4. Slang. Something very unpleasant or difficult.

v. Slang bitched, bitch·ing, bitch·es
v. intr.

To complain; grumble.

v. tr.

To botch; bungle. Often used with up.

[Middle English bicche, from Old English bicce.]

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Main Entry: bitch
Pronunciation: 'bich
Function: noun
: the female of the dog or some other carnivorous mammals

Source: Merriam-Webster's Medical Dictionary, © 2002 Merriam-Webster, Inc.

bitch

n 1: an unpleasant difficulty; "this problem is a real bitch" 2: a woman who is thoroughly disliked; "she said her son thought Hilary was a bitch" [syn: cunt] 3: informal terms for objecting; "I have a gripe about the service here" [syn: gripe, kick, beef, squawk] 4: female of any member of the dog family v : say mean things [syn: backbite]

Source: WordNet ® 2.0, © 2003 Princeton University

Music at the moment: Sendiri~Siti Nurhaliza

only God knows

2005-12-05T19:13:00.000+08:00

my beloved atuk

Ya Tuhan
Panjangkan lahh umur atuk kesayangan ku ini
itulahh sahaja permintaan ku yg terakir

Amin

life

2005-12-05T18:56:00.000+08:00

looking at my footsteps
they are big
dark and scary

it's endless
still wanting to go on
i'm trying to hide under those footsteps
but to no avail
why
too ashamed of myself?
yes
but why?

my footsteps don't love me anymore
they hated me as much i hated them
but i'm glad
they are still intact
10 of them
not 9
not 11
perfect 10

Music at the moment: Aduh Saliha~Mawi

sigh!

2005-12-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

21 more days...

countdown

5
4
3
2
1

congrats...

i wish!

masa itu emas

2005-11-25T02:25:00.000+08:00

time was not by ma side...
time wasn't right for me..
time was too tough for me..
time can be very stressful
time was lovely for you and me
time was very crucial at that point
time was timeless
time can be fun wif your jahanamz
time was a bit different during my sec school days
time was too fast in JC
time was very memorable during my eunosian days
time can be irritating at times

time sometimes can be hopeless
time dun give me another second chance
time to cry
time to piss people off
time to make myself a fool
time to get all the attention
time to mug
time to parrttyyyy
time to eat
time to sleep
time to shit

like wat i had said early
time wasn't right at all for me.............sadly coz

i tink time was untimed!!!!

jeritan emily rose

2005-11-20T16:50:00.000+08:00

thanx to da lovely pics by...FEZ~productions...simply lurve ya always!!!

sape kata teruna melayu tak menawan? hahaha...lu gi releks sua!

my kluarga angkat...tak terangkat dokss...presenting ma chip=rafaat hamzah

da nick says so...

dis pic was taken last two raya...damn i look so freaking thin lahh...me and ma kentalz sec frenz...

Goshhh...da wonderful events of da yr...
simply miss those moments wif chip and his everloving mum..hahaa...
my kentalanzz...

and ohh yahh...da great movie we watched ydae nite: Exorcism on Emily Rose...
hahaa...freaking rubbish and thanx to dat stupid cat in da earlier part...so malu lahhh!!!

wat am i doin now sia??
mana buku computingku?

alamak dah berabuk siolsss.......

can't wait to parrrrtttyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!

hurt

2005-11-08T01:47:00.000+08:00

i love the way you are...u make me feel happy when i'm wif ya always...
u love the way i am...u feel happier wen I'm able to call u during that helpless nite...
u told me that i'm special in ur heart...
well, u are too...

but...i'm feeling hurt at the same time...
i dun noe wat to do...trying ma best to win ur heart(though i won long tyme ago)...i still feel that ur not going to be wif me....wen's da right tyme dear??

every breath i take, i tink of u...are u doin so?
who's stopping u?

are u still breathing in da first place?

are u?

i'm perfectly alright here....but wateva it is...nothing can stop the two of us...
i'm not swearing for goodness sake...

i want da whole world to be happy juz like us...

are u still there?

Salam Lebaran

2005-11-04T01:52:00.000+08:00

to ya all..ma blog hoppers...happy eid mubarak!!!

juz came back frm raya outing...still having raya-crazed mood...:p

Music at the moment: Angguk2 Geleng2~ Ahli Fiqir

freakorganic

2005-10-28T02:46:00.000+08:00

i thought...sleeping longer wuld be good.......
but damn...terlajak ma sahur...arguing wif mum..coz i was too sleepy to wake up to munch ma food..
then......i woke up at 12+...still planning whther to escape frm IT tut...wich i did lahhh....

revision for ORG was over....none at all.....mental block juz now...wanted to cry...I wish...but too bad...copied frm a fren...felt bad as usual!! I juz wana see some marks for it...dun care whter i pass or fail..but this time round, I'm scared..over a freaking module......shitttoosss!!

tot life would be easier in nus..i mean da lifestyle!! not da exams and all...my main objective of coming to sch is to enjoy wif ma company...seriusly...get that degree...and settle ma own life asap!!
nuting special...dun noe what to look for in working life...maybe a chem analyst...sounds chimm and boring...but trust me...can be enjoyable at times....HAHAHA!!!

i can't believe i'm da only pathetic soul having raya mood at this critical moment...haha...can't wait sia for it..wana spend 2-3 days enjoying it..no books around...pas tu baru lehh strt muggg....projects still undone...haizzz...who cares???

miss ma grandparents at kg...ma loved ones....ma arwahss...ma fwensss...ma nite life...KL....

haizzz...nuthing to blog now...mental blocked again!!
Freakozzzzzzz

hmmmm....wondering if a hard-core minah would like to date me? still thinking....

Music at the moment: mawi & siti nurhaliza~seroja

tok nek

2005-10-28T02:32:00.000+08:00

wana be da loverboy
in your heart, baby
wana be da playboy,
in your heart, baby
wana be da toyboy
in your heart, baby
wana be da mummy's boy
in your heart, baby
wana be da toyboy
in your heart, baby

damn,........do i sound like a pervert to ya...
ohhh I guess u shiokkk sendiri marn...get a life...hahaaa

ooppsss....100% over-exposed!!

one year later

2005-10-20T10:27:00.000+08:00

one year later,

vehicles stop moving,
wind stop blowing into our eyes,
birds not chirping at all,
no morning cock's calls,
mating season dies,
people stop laughing,
stop eating and drinking,
stop gossiping, back-slashing, bad-mouthing,
fishes stop swimming,
rain stops at the moment....
water stop flowing along river

one year later,

moon stops orbiting around the earth,
earth stops revolving around the sun,
stars stop blinking,
supernova or nova dies
luminosity unlit anymore
telescope stop functioning,
the speed of light becomes zero.

one year later,

i still can't get the joke....

Music at the moment: It's Like That~Mariah Carey

himbodanny

2005-10-18T03:45:00.000+08:00

SAM cast dudezzz

wateva it is, I simply lurvvvveee this awesome pic by fez prod...simply irresistable..hahaaa

hmmm posing nampak..mateen,mua,aslin,atikk & yann

me and ma Jahanamz...yahh I look freakg gay here...

raya mood

2005-10-18T03:30:00.000+08:00

satu pagi di hari raya

aku sujud memujiMU

nice raya song marn at this hr...3+++ in da morning wif mum still awake and sis sleeping...mata aku skrg tak lehh angg arr..but seriusly i need to de-stress maself before da Feared exams coming...

been so long neva update ma blog...alahh who cares to read it...rite dude??? hahaa....
aku mcm hypersensitive and hypersemangat for this sem lahhh...so many things been thru marn...dance, theatre, mini projs...and so on lahh..ohh damn..I MISS SAM SO MUCH LAHHH!!! miss ma dearest CHIP...my casts...my crews...my managers...and da whole thing...feel like doin it all over again minus da rehearsals..hehee....

time to keep up wif ma frenz via iftar...ma ILSA-ans...me sec frenz...my 6 jahanamz...my lionesses...ma PBMish...hmmmmm saper lagik ehh...and i can't believe dah masuk ramadhan ke 14 sehhh...fuyooo..cepat giler...raya pun tak lama lagik...kekeke...for me, raya's da best tyme of ma life arr...though many sad moments will happen at da same tyme, I still try ma very best to go thru it together wif ma beloved oness...I mean it marn...

last update: evrything will go well for ma mini PBM proj, Yok Buka Yok! 21st Oct, Fri @Pertapis Senior Citizen's Welfare Home...Come and support us there man....break our fast together wif the grandparents them....Cheer them up..hehee....

time to build up my nest soon...hahaa...
dun noe gonna happen or not...I'll respect her..da way she respects me...equally fair...dun wana push too hard...let love lead its way...cheyy...watevalahh me....Perasan biar lebih doksss...

Selamat berpuasa.........

Music at the moment: Mekar Hari Raya~Siti Nurhaliza

dangdut blues

2005-09-26T12:47:00.000+08:00

ohh well..i'm alone as usual..hahaa...in the heart of LT25...computing!!!
2 more hrs to go for SAM's full dress rehearsal..takot pun ader...spashly my script..though me juz doin chorus..

hahaa..kudos to publicity for lettg us to be superstars or normal stars i guess under da suria's limelight...TGIF..berita harian..and soon..persada seni..hahaa..at least SAM's goin sumwhere sia...ppl keep callg me up for tics..but sorry ar..SOLD OUT!!!
sumore..some ppl..dun wana mention any names here..backed out last min....too bad...the rest of da s'poreans are still chasing for those tics...da well-deserved ppl i must say arr...

one more day marn for our next big thing...hurrah...then back to books..arrghhh...as usual zahdan...time to catch up ppl!!!

ohh yah...i'm here not to be 'bitchy'..but i must say that we all are werkg hard for SAM arr...it's juz that some ppl are not happy with one another's werk...alah...asalkan korang settle ur own werk..we settle with ours...bukan kiter tak meet everyday kan kan kan...hahaa....

i noe i can be a hypocrite at times...tell me ur ain't lahh...thats freaking bullshit...kiss ma arse if ya ain't one...

we gotta be real sumtimes..but too much it may turn out to be disastrous....I've seen such painful and heartbreaking cases before...and me not gona elaborate on it...hehe...

life can be a jealousy....
life can be so irritating that I wana break down n cry
life can be sweeter if ya can be with ur loved ones everyday
life's da sweetest if ya are able to make peace-no-war wif ur greatest enemies...
life can be peaceful (hopefully) when you become a saint...Get it????

gosh...wat da hell my prof's talkg about??

~miss ilsa's bbq last sat~

shrugsss

2005-09-22T18:40:00.000+08:00

KRU~Sampai

sayang,
apa yang ku katakan,
apa yang ku rasakan,
belum pernah dialami.

demimu,
segala ku kurniakan,
yang susah ku senangkan,
asal hajat dipenuhi di hati.

dan masih lagi engkau bertanya,
sejauh manakah cinta,
penjelasan ku sebenar-benarnya...

c/o
sampai tubuh tak bernyawa,
sampai ku kepangkuanNya,
biar jasad tak dilihat zahir,
cinta ku tetap kan hadir.

andai dikurnia syurga,
kan ku tunggu di luarnya,
jika ditanya mengapa jawapanku menunggu,
kau sampai dahulu...

mudahnya sekadar bermadah,
hingga kau meragui keikhlasan sanubari,
sedangkan racun pun kan ku telan,
andai kau mengatakan ia madu kepadaku,
oh sungguh.

dan masih lagi engkau bertanya,
sedalam manakah cinta,
lafaz ikrar ku buat selamanya...

repeat c/o

katakan sayang,
bagaimakah harus ku hidup tanpa dirimu,
sedangkan separuh dari jiwaku,
bersamamu...

~tired from SAM & 3J meeting~

Such A Madness

2005-09-15T14:22:00.000+08:00

kauzzzz...dah lama tak berbloggg...heheee

takde time siolsss..Sam lahh...labbie reportsss....so much time taken up oredi..nak chill ngan members pun susah...no time at all for shopping...

told u me forever whining..hahahaa

nway...juz wana update u ma dearest bloggie...gua baru balik dari kampung tau...dah seminggu pun..went there last weekend...freak lahh..musim buah dah abis..tinggal buah rambai ajerr...tak sedap dokkss!!! kwang3...nway as usual lepakss wif atuk n wan...they gettg older n more slower...risau sehh...tu jer lahh harapan aku seh..22 yrs old now..and ma grandparents still living...masih kuat buat kerja rumah...

damn..i wish i culd be like them..stay kat kampung...breathe in da fresh air..ain't referring to ma faggies arr...hahaaa...
dengar bunyi2 ayam kat kampung...mandi air pehh sejukk kat dlm kolam...hahaaa
see all da diff huge insects u've neva seen before...aargghhh!!!
enjoying every moments wif ya cuzzins...ur nieces and nephewss...

but once u come back to s'pore...u ain't experiencing that!!! Bloody bitchh...
i kan't tahan any longer...trying to put up my damn fake smile in sch!!!

ohhh gosh....simply can't wait for puasa and raya...time to enjoy again and get out frm this freaking island...

tatazzzz.......

*spectro lect now...can't be bothered as usual!!!

OKB

2005-08-26T02:33:00.000+08:00

waiting for exactly half an hr...to 11pm...

no sign of him...

damn tired as always frm tarian...3 more days to our exciting Macbeth...

still waiting...where da hell is he???

hearing ma fav Mr Vegas song....sedaaaappp...tinkg of clubbing next mth...

maner siakkk dier nie???

lights beaming....

from farr....

finallyyyy...

OKB....baru nampak batang hidung...not one...but two!!

OKB....

OKB...

Orang Kreta Baru sehhh....hehee

nissan...

turqouise green...bluish green....greenish blue..wateva lahh....

jamming our way to changi V...obviously not lookg at the shimss...for god's sake...

nasi lemak buah bidara...

hahahaa.....

1+++ am...signing off.....

miss ma nite life..thanxx gad..for tonite...been wonderful wif ya guys peeps...

life's like this...always...hopefully...insyaallah.............

No music at the moment.........

sleeping beauty

2005-08-23T18:40:00.000+08:00

bloody cold sia..in CBLC YIH....freezing ICE!!!
away frm all meetgs..hopefully
skipped too many lects..shesshh...penat gilerr sehh..Lame excuse as usual...
felt very guilty..test this thurs...0% knowledge of basic organic chem in ma brain...haha...yeah rite dude!!!

malas...pemalas...asyikk tido jerr...
damn...hahaha
shuld i change to a better malas person?

i felt very lazy all tis while...lack of Vit C!! Freakksss....
shut everything off frm ma ears during meetg,lectures,tutorials,conversations..
wen it comes to sleeping time, nothing to comment...

sleep early ard 1 or 2++...woke up on time for ma next lect...WTF!!!
zahdan..zahdan...mak kan dah suroh jgn masuk jawatankuasa...tarian...tu sumer takde faedah...bla bla bla...now i'm blaming ma mum for naggg to much...i can cope wif ma schedules...i noe i'm bz...i noe i'm tired too..but give me a break arr...
well..it's juz da PMS period of ma mum n me too..I declared it maself...

so sape2 yg tersinggung...mintak maaf arr..its juz not ma days, my weeks, my mths..
juz need a gerl to lighten up ma load arr...i guess so..hahaa

damn...wats next??

Music at the moment: Cinta Tiada Ganti : Siti Nurhaliza

kurik tu kundi

2005-08-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

Usman Awang

Melayu

Melayu itu orang yang bijaksana
Nakalnya bersulam jenaka
Budi bahasanya tidak terkira
Kurang ajarnya tetap santun
Jika menipu pun masih bersopan
Bila mengampu bijak beralas tangan

Melayu itu berani jika bersalah
Kecut takut kerana benar
Janji simpan di perut
Selalu pecah di mulut
Biar mati adat
Jangan mati anak

Melayu di Tanah Semenanjung luas maknanya:
Jawa itu Melayu, Bugis itu Melayu
Banjar juga disebut Melayu,
Minangkabau memang Melayu,
Keturunan Acheh adalah Melayu,
Jakun dan Sakai asli Melayu,
Arab dan Pakistani, semua Melayu
Mamak dan Malbari serap ke Melayu
Malah mua'alaf bertakrif Melayu
(Setelah disunat anunya itu)

Dalam sejarahnya
Melayu itu pengembara lautan
Melorongkan jalur sejarah zaman
Begitu luas daerah sempadan
Sayangnya kini segala kehilangan

Melayu itu kaya falsafahnya
Kias kata bidal pusaka
Akar budi bersulamkan daya
Gedung akal laut bicara

Malangnya Melayu itu kuat bersorak
Terlalu ghairah pesta temasya
Sedangkan kampung telah tergadai
Sawah sejalur tinggal sejengkal
Tanah sebidang mudah terjual

me really proud to be a malay..though DKK involved too...hahahaaa
high five marn!!!

S.A.M (siaknyerr Ang Moh)

2005-08-06T01:34:00.000+08:00

SMS ME IF YA INTERESTED IN THIS OR JUZ DA PERSON ONLY....EHEM2....hahahaa...biatchy me!

ke arah masyarakat hip & happening

2005-08-06T01:30:00.000+08:00

stll da fav in ma album...ILSA's welcome tea...

after AGM...sheesha-ing together...GEREKSSS

finally kebajikan heads for PBMUKS 2005-06..yahoooooo

freaking gay boys..hahaa

patriotic ILSA-ians

2005-07-31T01:23:00.000+08:00

kauuzzz...tak lehh angkat sehh...freaking sylvester's gettg on ma nerves...hahaa...i tapped hard on his shulders wantg to shake hand..but too bad..he cannot be bothered..wtf?? nak act malu..tapi tak tau tempat..damn you...nway me not s'pore-idol crazed dude..but it's fun seeing all these popular idols doin their perf...wish i culd be one too..hahaa3
our glam moments were fantastic lahh...where we got to berzapin in front of many peeps at taman jurong CC...fuyoohhh sungguh happening!!! did slight mistakes..but who cares...taufik's perf was gd..i had to say this lahh gals...he's very da frendly...and for da sake of my dance gals..had to shout his name, "Taufik...sini lahh..amik gambar nagn kita orang..." Hahaha...me muka tak tau malu siollsss...Fortunately he did lahh...kalau tak..buih sehh...

One Last

I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can’t change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it’s better if we just let it go
So let’s have

Chorus
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there’s nothing wrong
Let’s stay here for a while and
Cherish every moment we’re in denial
We both know
It’s better if we just let it go

Every time I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there’s the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can’t change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it’s better if we just let it go
So let’s have

Chorus

Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to hear
So let’s have

Chorus

We both know
It’s better if we just let it go

He sang this song...which i really love it lahh...but too bad..not da person...
haizzz...wish siti nurhaliza was juz by my side....dancing at da stage together..eyes staring one another....shall be the moments in my wet dream later....hahahaa...BLUEKSSSS!!!

ILSA TARI WELCOME TEA
ILSA BERDANSA
MON, 1st AUG
UCC, Green Room
7pm

Come down and support us....

Music at the moment: Girlfight~Brooke Valentine

ma SHAGGED life

2005-07-28T16:53:00.000+08:00

dance finally over for me ydae...
slept freaking early..10pm...hahaa...totally alone and freaked out suddenly in da room all by myself...family went fishing at p.ris pond...too shagged to go down and see them...
woke up freaking late 1+ in da aftnoon...no wonder my sis labelled me as da half-a-day man...hahaa...need more than 12 hrs to feel freah for da next day...hahahaaa

got ma intro to computing..600pts...prgmme account..and sumore..i hate computing since sec sch times...hahaaa....wat a hypocrite me!!!

one more mod to go...another MS mod.......
giler siak aku...tak serik2 dibuatnyer...though been gettg Cs for 2 mods...and I still wana go for it..maybe dah minat nak katakan...haizzz...tgk lah keadaan....

this sat...swing s'pore at taman jurong CC..zapin sungai kallang again...
wif ma usual dancers...gona b a great experience for me..joget kat luar doks...
malu marn.......mesti nak terkincit punyerr..hahaha

no time for lovelife this tyme..been bz..bz...bz agin till sep...no time for dating...clubbing..aiyoh..miss my youth days...i guess ma undergrad life gona be a boring one soon...yr two oredi and i missed out alots...though i can't sae that i got no frenz now..hahaa...been making new ones too..and me glad about it...

insyaallah..kalau ader jodoh..mgkin bole dpt punyerr...yeah
i have been relying on dat statement for a very long tyme...damn..must work on it...haizzz...

shhesssshh...sch strtg soon...haven do shopping yet...damn...wen's da rite tyme??
Got ma new specs oredi...so happy sia...hehee....

Music at the moment: Jalinan~Unic

flame on

2005-07-24T01:30:00.000+08:00

me gona be burnt out soon..left 5 more to go...CDRs..for our PBM matric fair...
Helping ILSA too...my dance steps gettg worse..wat happened to me sia??
can't remember my steps well..
kaki dah melecet...too much prac i guess?? hahaa...
tmr 9am report at mpsh...damn..me still burng da CDs...arrgghhh...

matric fair...again..miss those nostalgic moments last yr..wen i was a freshie...so happenglahh..walked frm one booth to another...flyers all over da place...then got waiting time to see da lappies..and now...I am finally a senior...hahaha
Happy to be in year 2...finally..hehe...more jialat chem mods to cover!!!

my macbeth's still undone sehh..camner nie?? aku tul2 risau...sumore..gona be another kontemplasi which i really like da most...compared to traditional dances...hehe..
esp wen u can really move shiok sendiri to da max lahh...28aug at UCC..come n support us da ILSA-ansssss....

biler lahh aku lehh releks...i haven do shopping yet...esp need to replnish ma bajus and sandals..prolly acessories...hehee
mamamia..29july...need to get a retro shirt...arrgghh...
but thank God...rezki pun finally masuk tis mth...leh pakai skit2 utk shopping...kene jimat dokss...

kental retro camz senyap...
standard arr..sumer bz..incldg me..cannot be blamed...
miss da folks...yelah dah attached perr...kiter kan maseh single..hahaa...wateva lahh!!!
i need hols...how bout aug?? hmm....zubs amacam??

ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

kasihan kasihku

2005-07-18T13:55:00.000+08:00

From the album "Syura"

Pandang-pandang hati terkenang
Tidur malam wajah terbayang
Renung-renung hati keliru
Siapakah di hatimu

Jeling-jeling mahu memandang
Dua mata bertentang mata
Harap-harap pula bertemu
Bimbang nanti resah menunggu

Lama-lama.....lama apa
Lama rindu....pada siapa
Pada teruna idaman

Rasa resah.....resah apa
Rasa pilu....bikin apa
Hai dia buat tak tahu

Jauh-jauh.....jauh apa
Jauh hati.....hati siapa
Hati kita yang terluka

Rasa resah.....resah apa
Rasa malu.....bikin apa
Tangan bertepuk sebelah

Dapatkah kuinginkan
Hatimu dan hatiku
Berpadu jadi satu

Jauh-jauh orang berpesan
Yang di sana senang merindu
Harap-harap masa terluang
Ada waktu ingin bertemu

Jauh-jauh menyemai padi
Tidak lalang tumbuh sebendang
Harap-harap kasih menjadi
Dua jiwa berpasangan

Cintaku cintamu suci berpadu
Rinduku rindumu mekar menjadi satu
Dua jiwa berpasangan
Dua cinta berpautan
Senandungkanlah irama cinta suci

Nazam Berkasih~Syura

day 4

2005-07-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

nuestro viaje'05...finally da very last dae today...
in LT 33..listening to our cikgu mansor sukaimi regardg da best degree and also about undergrad lives...nice guy though...
halimah yaacob and sujimy mohamad pun aderr...hehehe...

the days were tiring...i was damn sick lahh on 3rd dae...stressed over my games thingy..though i knew myself that I could do it...

so far so gd...me able to overcome all those nonsense obstacles...the thing i hate da most in da camp is esp da timings...i really can't stand da way army style werks in a camp...i wana sae this is not a freaking boot camp!!! dahlah nombor2 stress kan kepala otak aku...
pllssss...juz believe in da guidance of GOD..and if u have the ultimate faith in urself...insyaallah u can do it man...and of courselahh do enjoy ourselves too....enjoy tetap enjoy!!!

wokiess...halimah yaacob gona present her speech now...be right back...

Silence is Golden!

day 0

2005-07-11T02:27:00.000+08:00

me in USP room now...cold...in my shorts jerr...
hahahaha...

daya and you-no-need-to-know-who so lovely2 lahh...so jeles of them...
few more hrs to go manzzz...8am briefing...and its under me...poor soul!! suzi's werking...damn...

me not excited at all...juz looking forward to end this whole show at ease...
da girls...hmmm...of course lahh...cuci mata jugakss...hahaha...60+ chicks sia...
guys...pathetic number..but who cares in da first place...

pool and bowling...not forgettg our cute mempelai...nadia and her hubbie...
bowling was disastrous..nearly destroyed the floor wif my magnificent bouce frm da ball...kwang3...

gosh...me sleepy now...mata aku tak lehh ang lagik siolsss....
day 0..here i come to summon u all...

nitesss

Music at the moment: If I Let You Go~Westlife

hmmmmm....Redhill?

2005-07-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

lagi beraper hari jerr...tak sabar this FOC thingy finish man...i wana sae shit...but too bad...who cares...haizzz...i'm not a two-faced person...very da honest here...hahaa...

loopholes..juz too many of them...my part dah settled..alhamdulilah...but dun noe whether I'm able to execute well on dat two freaking days...pllsss help me manzz...
nisrin's been apologising...i'm okie wif ya lahh gerl...is juz dat me quite irritated when ya neva msgd me at all...u still do ur part and i'm happy bout it..though some are unhappylahh wif da road thingy...nahh who cares...believe in wateva ya do...as long as da safety aspects are met...orite gal?? gal..ur still my IC lorr...hahaaa...nak put everything to u arr...hehee

yr 2........a new year for me and da rest of my batch...
still climbing the many steps in my life...wondering which steps I culd miss to reach da top...chemistry's still my choice...hidup mati denganmu...

lab supervisor,assistant or a chem teacher??

still need to catch up wif my social life and frenzz...hahaha...long time neva club siollss...my bootie kept shaking whenever i hear any groovy music on da move..hahaha..biatch!!! i juz lurve dance so much....arrgghhh...

wanting to join anugerah'05...hahaha...worried that I'll be da next frog singing in da rain....accompanied by others...yesh U!!!

me still unattached...
sad over such trivial matter....
singlehood is fun...seriusly...
but feel da loneliness...always...
God I'm not asking for much....but
i juz wana make my parents happy...
my siblings...
my frenz...

myself....

and my future wife........*hehehe (insyaallah)

P/S: Selamat Pengantin Baru: Nadia Izzaty and her hubbie (10/7) & Nelson and his wife (10/7)
and also my beloved nephew: Farhan Malik (pertunangan on 30/7)

wen's my turn exactly? hahaaa........

Music at the moment: Through The Rain~Mariah Carey

han two, han 2, hantoo, hantu

2005-07-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

1. Hantu Raya- Berasal dari Tanah Melayu. Dipercayai terkorban di dalam satu
kemalangan jalan raya, sebaik saja keluar dari Pudu Raya untuk pulang berhari
raya.......kegemarannya mencuri kuih kuih raya. Tempat menginapnya
disyaki di balai - balai raya.

2. Hantu Langsuir- Dikenal pasti berasal dari Tanah Seberang. Ceritanya bermula di suatu
pagi raya bila seorang suri rumah sedang memasang langsir lalu terjatuh
dari tingkap, terus mati. Selepas itu, dia selalu datang menjeguk
langsirnya. Hobinya bermain aumm cak di tepi langsir.

3. Hantu Stokin- Berasal dari kawasan perindustrian Shah Alam. Merupakan seorang
taukeh stokin yang berjaya sehingga lupa rumah tangga. Hidupnya asyik dengan
stokin. Tidur stokin, makan stokin, minum stokin sehinggalah kawan
kawan menggelarnya Hantu Stokin.

4. Hantu Jerangkung- Di percayai berasal dari Tanah Besar China. Ia bekerja sebagai
penjerang kangkung di sebuah restoran. Hari hari kerjanya jerang kangkung
dalam sebuah periuk besar. Satu hari seorang kawan menyergahnya dari
belakang, kerana terlalu terkejut ia jatuh dalam periuk itu. Perkataan
akhirnya ialah 'jerang.....kung', jadilah Hantu Jerangkung. Hobinya
mencangkung dan tempat tinggalnya dalam almari, sebab tu le ada lagu
'Jerangkung Dalam Almari'.

5. Hantu Pontianak- Disyaki berasal dari India. Seorang lelaki, Mr. Ponti mendapat
seorang anak perempuan yang sangat hodoh. Orang kampung selalu menyindir anak
ponti ini. Ponti punya anak - Ponti punya anak - Ponti punya anak.
Ponti sangat malu dan mengurung anaknya. Selepas 5 tahun, anaknya keluar
dari rumah dan terkejutlah seorang nenek, Oi! Pontianak...Lekatlah nama
pontianak.

6. Hantu Penanggal
- Seorang ibu tiri yang kejam, hobinya menanggalkan kain anak tirinya
selain kain lakinya. Dah terbiasa dia rasa seronok pulak. Dia melebarkan
hobinya dengan menanggalkan kain orang orang kampung. Hebohlah satu
kampung 'Lari..lari.....Penanggal'. Bila dia melihat sesuatu yang menarik
seperti kurap, panau, kayap dan anu.....dia pun mengilai semahunya.

7. Hantu Pocong- Berasal dari Puchong. Nama sebenarnya Amat Garpu Bin Mat Sudu. Dia ni
suka sangat menipu, senang cerita...kaki cong le. Bila dia mati
terlompat lompatlah dia, nak pergi cong orang. Pucong! Pucong!

8.Hantu Kom-Kom- Berasal dari Hantu Komputer,macam ko rang yang suka main Komputer
surf internat sampai 24jam hingga tak ingat dunia..disebabkan suka main
komputer hingga mati pun depan komputer,..........komputer,komputer.akhir
sekali di sebutlah hantu Kom-KOM..shortcut dari Komputer jadi ler
KOM..sahaja

9.Hantu Pangkah- Hanya wujud atau keluar masa hari Pilihanraya Umum atau Pilihanraya
Kecil. Mereka akan dikerah sekiranya perlu. Mereka cuma pergi undi
...pastu dpt habuan. Orang ramai diminta sentiasa berhati-hati sebab kerana
mereka cukup bahaya dan pandai meyesuaikan diri dalam pergaulan
biasa.....

10.Hantu Galah - Hantu galah ni berasal dari permainan galah panjang. Si hamba Allah
ni suka sangat main galah panjang sampai tak kenal waktu. Waktu panas
ke, hujan ke, ribut ke... dia tak pernah kisah. Dipercayai terkorban
kerana di himpap pokok ketiga hujan ribut petir. So...setelah kematiannye
orang kampung selalu ternampak ada org bermain galah panjang pada waktu
malam...Sebab itu dipanggil hantu galah....

11.Hantu Jepun- Berasal dari Tanjung Malim. Bekerja sebagai penyanyi di salah sebuah
pop. Wanita ni suka sangat pakai make-up tebal2 sehingga kawan-kawan
mengelarnye JEPUN kerana ketebalan make-upnya. Pada suatu hari wanita ini
ternampak suaminya belaku curang. Dengan perasaan geram bertambah marah
wanita ini naik ke tingkat 17 dan terus TERJUN (bunuh diri). Akhirnya
mati dalam keadaan yang ngeri. Selepas kematiannye, setiap hari suaminya
diganggu oleh roh isterinya...Hantu Jepun.....Waaaaa

12. Han Ki Tae- Ini Han tu suka kacau orang, usik-usik orang serta sakat-sakat,
lebih-lebih lagi budak perempuan. Muahahahahaha :P

LAME...but funny...juz me arr...

Music at the moment: Kocok-kocok~Inul Daratista

nuestro viaje'05

2005-06-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

puurrrfect moment in front of da freaking hall kira batu di tepi kolam?

wat u looking at? neva see me roasting a marshmallow before?

us: the boys are back in town....gerls get charged now!!!

aarrgghhhh...its not happening again!!!

uncle S.A.M nyer nephews and nieces

bomoh in disguise

pretty tired and bz for this week..and coming two weeks...
miss my new hp...hahah...after FOC baru nak dpt..dah byr pun..kentalnyerr upgarding...sabar eh!!!

wats da main purpose in our life? bitch about ppl or let ppl bitch bout us? hmmmmm...been there, done that...had enuff...OUCH!!!

mendaki printing...vid filming on sat....retreat?? nak pegi atau tidak??

Music at the moment: I'm Not Okay (I Promise)~My Chemical Romance

h.o.r.i.s.g.a.d.z.a.h.d.a.n.a.s.i.r.i.h.a.m.z.f.e.z.z.e.l

2005-06-23T01:53:00.000+08:00

felt much better for dis week..thanx guys...did some soul-searchg arr..hahaha...been pretty laid back...events after events...meetgs mcm tak habis2 gitu...ahaha..today's my resting dae..yahoooo..finally peepss...
geez..i need money to go for hols..and heard my sis's gettg her 1st bonus...hehee...yeah her bonus this mth...so trying my very best to win her heart..paham2 lah yah..pasal abg ader hajat arr...kakaa...felt so bad about it suddenly...

everyone's bz next mth..can't deny..me too...ilsa....productions...FOC...woooaa...me doin lotsa stuffs...and yet unpaid (complaining plus whining mode)....blueekkss...but alhamdulilah..got another tutee this cumg july..but I have to teach eng! Worst subject of all...ngah risau jugakss...camner nak tackle budak sec 4 ni seh...

wokies...nuting to update.....but i gotta change my style of thinkings...ppl been complaing...my dearest bros..cam sedih ngan perangai aku..yg selalu reject their offers...releks lah...tak cukup tido lah korang!!!

miss my kental peeps...and myra too...baik2 kat KL...next tyme..biler dapat LBKM nyer bursary..kiter gi hols sama2 k...hahahaa....

fez told me it's FULL MOON today..so go and check it out peeps...if sumting unusual bothering ur mind and soul rite now..dun worriieee...juz another side effect...ur hormones are raging lahh...kwang kwang kwang....

GTG

Music at the moment: Wajah Kekasih~Siti Nurhaliza

irritated

2005-06-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

guess I'm too much towards my frenz..i guess I really can't accept my frenz' comments..hurt me too deep...trying my very best to blend in with them but i guess i had failed all this while...
too bengapz i guess? i really dun noe y...mum tinks i've been hanging out wif frenz too much till aku lupakan my family...i juz wana find my true joy wif them...
Peeps...10 yrs i've been wif ya all...wat bad stuffs I had commited? Am i really dat impure that no one wants me? Am i really that immature? Am I really that faggotish that scares da hell outta you? What makes you not? What makes u tink that ur closer to God? I'm not complaining..but i guess..less meetings wif ya all will cool me down perhaps...

friends...do come and go at da same time...nahh 2 friendster accounts..big deal ppl!!! me juz a hopeless bird who thinks me not a penguin...but i am! Oh gosh...i guess..i tink too much..talk craps all da time...slacking behind...
identity crisis's killing me too.......
if i'm given a chance...i juz wana be a baby thruout my lifetime...ppl will hold me in their arms..providing me warmth and love...

guess..I'll be selfish to everyone...I'm sorry...I've made up my mind!

Music at the moment: This is How a Heart Breaks~ Rob Thomas

airmata kasih

2005-06-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

sshhh...i'm supposed to go for my workshop..but geez...i woke up..juz nice..1430hrs!!!
da nite before..slept freakg late ard 4+...sumore..this morning, the weather was so nice and cooling to make me carry on wif my making love sessions wif my pillow and blanket..haha..no wonder I was always kena called da 'wet blanket'!!!...hehe :p

sheesh..me really broke..unemployed...really feel bad..turning down frenz's offer...ajak kuar..tapi tak kuasa...haizzz...i really dun wana go out if me penniless...wat for? orang belanja mkn...kauz...muka aku nak letak maner...i really dun mind arr bayar balik..but then...aku really2 malu about it...aku ngah risau gilerr...my dad planng to stop werkg as taxi driver next yr...tak kan aku nak depend on my sis seh....sumore..my brader pulakss..haizz..long story....now I feel bad bout myself...me still studyg..still using parent's money...

duit simpanan aku...haizz..aku pun tak tau..melesap ke manerr...now i feel much happier wif my prepaid card..kalau takzz...duit bill aku jerr melambung tinggi nak mampuz...bulan nie..rezeki aku lum aderr...tusyen pun cam senyap gilerr...tak call-call aku pun...

planng to do relief teachg next yr...since most permanent teachers nak amik extra leaves...tapi my cca nyer aktiviti jerr dah belambak...who's to blame? me or them??
aku nyerr org suka chill ngan members..buat sumtg dat i like...me da type of person tak leh duk kat umah for long tyme..mesti tak sedap hati..though i can be considered a mummy's boy gitu..hahaa...biler time skola...aku relieve my freakg stress by my tarian....feel so gd wen u can get to shake ur booty wif ur frenzzz..hehe...so dats y...i feel happier wen i do all these stuffs..but yet complaing and whing to myself wen stuffs get onto my nerves....
*sumer org dah tau wen i start to piss off like mad...

So how??? i myself mcm at the crossroad gitu...somehow teringat this peribahasa thingy...sumtg like...bagai kerakap di atas batu,hidup enggan mati tak mahu...i noe it sounds a bit crappy...but i shall pasrah to the only GOD who has decided on my only lifetime...but i got to berikhtiar a bit arr to maintain all da gd things and bad things in my life!!! insyaallah...i really wana be a gd muslim juz like da rest...somehow or something refrains me frm doin so...nvm...i shall try to work on it.... :p

so sleep tite zahdan and juz wish dat everything will turn out well for tmr...kalau tak bangun....plss wake me up k..coz I got lotsa things to catch up with...hehehe...

Music at the moment: Sekelip mata Kau Berubah~Lestari

emo

2005-06-13T12:33:00.000+08:00

The whole PB journey wif da coolest kids..hahaa...it was extremely fun and joyous wif them around...thanx to ya Jambul Kids...u've made our dae...kak fez, abg nizam and me too..hehehe...

And yah..Ilsa outing too...fuyoo mkn cam nak rak seh...sedappppp...ingat tak kiter nyer 'Earthquake' tak jadi...hahaha...ader papaya sekali kat atas...hoohoo..kekek siol...cya later ilsa peeps...Miss ya all!!!

Enjoy da picsss....

after......kauzzzzzzzz...da PB facis!!! FOCUSSSSSS

before...............

TuN JamBUL lekkk suuuaaa.......

aku ngan lat...ngah 'chill' katakan...

makan sakan siolsss

ilsa 'seoul garden' outing...poor ayuni..sakit arrr..ish ish ish

Music at the moment: Drowning~Backstreet Boys

sad sad me...

2005-06-11T12:04:00.000+08:00

PB had juz ended wif a great blow..hahaha...biatchy zahdan...
nway..thanxxx everyone for da great efforts they had put in..and yesh..i really love kids now..seriusly...haha...paedophile wannabe me....I want to have 17 kids juz like this dude...radin..hahaha...great story bout him!!

haizzz...i dun wana see dat pengsan mode of mine again in da vid...malu siolss....wat da freshies will tink bout me?? me feel bad about it seh...too feminine i guess...haizzz...i gotta buck up man...i juz wana be myself...like da rest of da guys...wat lacks in me exactly? i dun mind they teasing me..but sumtimes there's a limit...we people sumer ader patience...but spashly when it comes to sexuality...it can be a pain...I've endured this since da beginning of primary school times...being given all kind of names...i wanted to blame my parents for not giving me enuff supports...but then it's really me the one who's controlling my life...
me not here to complain or whine or watsoever..but every nites I will think hard bout myself...and ask for forgiveness from God for da way I am...
I juz wana be like da rest of them and be happy juz like others....each time me being made fun of..I'll juz give a smile...tak guna kalau nak carik gaduh...I juz bersabar jerr...aku dah byk dosa...takmu tambah lagik...ohh gosh am i really dat freaking sissy??

ouch...and I really hate dat word!!! i dun noe y.....but i really feel hurt...plllsss everyone...i know i bitch alot...and prolly dats y God's testing me back...and I've gone thru it so many times...
but to no worries..God knows best in me..and I must find dat straight path before someone grabs it...the other part of me...I believe everyone has their own masculinity and feminity in them...its juz that how they play a part together..if one fails to commit...the other party suffers...

well...i have to saY dat i'm really glad to have da coolest frenz on earth...who neva fail to support and encourage me to da top..though I really need to cover a bit more steps to my glorious life!!! hahaaa....

k lah enuff bout me sia...tak sabar nak berFOC..though da engine mcm nak rosak gitu...i'm still undone wif my games...arrgghhh!!! kekekee....
i miss my kental retro frenz...been a mth I tak dpt kuar ngan dorang..standard lah zahdan...bz bz bz!! orang pun bingit....haizz..no worries guys..insyaallah one dae we'll meet one another....u all miss I jugak kan??

my principles during PB to da kids (Jambul)

the faster u move, the faster we finish...
telinga digunakan utk dengar dan mulut digunakan utk DIAM!!! (abit frustrated...but no worries...me saying in a firm way...I dun shout k FYI)

Music at the moment: Bersatu Dalam Rindu~Misha Omar

humpty dumpy humped a blonde

2005-06-11T01:25:00.000+08:00

Dirty Blonde Jokes

Who's The Dummy?
A young ventriloquist is touring the clubs and stops to entertain at a bar in a small town.
He's going through his usual run of silly blonde jokes when a big blonde woman in the fourth row stands on her chair and says, "OK jerk, I've heard just about enough of your denigrating blonde jokes. What makes you think you can stereotype women that way? What do a person's physical attributes have to do with their worth as a human being? It's guys like you who keep women like me from being respected at work and in my community, of reaching my full potential as a person... because you and your kind continue to perpetuate discrimination against not only blondes but women at large. All in the name of humor."
Flustered, the ventriloquist begins to apologize, when the blonde pipes up, "You stay out of this mister, I'm talking to that little fucker on your knee!"
Blonde Condoms
A young blonde woman walks into a drugstore and asks the pharmacist if he sells condoms.
He replies, "Yes we do. What size would you like?"
The blonde responds, "Oh, just mix them up, I am not going steady with anyone right now."

The Man Tool
A blonde female patient ask her gynecologist: "Doctor, I can not seem to get pregnant. I must not be fertile."
The doctor says, "come to my office after business hours, and I will use my long and powerful fertility tool inside your vagina thoroughly, and your fertility problem will be solved at no extra charge."
The blonde asks, "What tool is that?"

Typical Blonde Hoe
Why do blondes wear big hoop earings?
It's a place to rest their ankles.

Maybe Someday They'll Meet
What did the blonde's left leg say to her right leg?
We don't fucking know, they haven't met yet!

Difference Between A Blonde And A Rooster
What is the difference between a blonde and a rooster?
A Rooster says "cock-a-doodle-do," and a blonde says "any cock'll-do!"

I'm Sure It's Harder To Hear
Why did the blonde put condoms on her ears?
She was afraid of getting hearing aids!

Like Miracle Whip
Did you hear about the new paint on the market?
It's called Blonde. It's not very bright, but it spreads easy!

You're Gonna Bleach What!
Two women were having lunch together, and discussing the merits of cosmetic surgery.
The first woman says, "I need to be honest with you, I'm getting a boob job."
The second woman says "Oh that's nothing, I'm thinking of having my asshole bleached!"
To which the first replies, "Whoa I just can't picture your husband as a blonde!"

Favourite Rhyme
What's a blonde's favorite nursery rhyme?
Humpme Dumpme.

I Don't Fuck And I Don't Suck
One day, a blonde who lived on the 12th floor of a high-rise apartment building was out on her balcony, flapping the bed sheets to air them out, when suddenly a great gust of wind caught the sheets and sent her over the edge, plummeting to her death.
Without warning, a man on the 10th floor balcony stuck his arms out into the air, catching the woman.
Delirious from shock, the woman shouted, "Oh, thank you! You saved my life, thank you!"
The man replied, "Do you suck?"
Stunned at this, the woman said, "No, I don't suck!"
And with that, the man let go of her.
"Shit!" the woman thought as she began to plummet again. Suddenly, another set of arms grabbed her at the 9th floor.
"Thank God!" she screamed. "I would have died if it weren't for you!"
The man asked, "Do you fuck?"
Absolutely aghast, the woman answered, "No, I don't fuck!"
Once again, the arms that held her safe were no longer there. Falling again, the woman thought that she would surely die. Just then, a set of arms stretched out from the 7th floor.
Not believing her luck, the woman shouted, "I suck! I fuck!"
"Slut," the man said, and dropped her.

Shapely
Q.Why are Blonde's coffins shaped like a triangle?
A.Because everytime their head hits a pillow their legs open.

Milk It Does The Body Good
This blonde heard that milk baths would make you beautiful. She left a note for her milkman to leave 15 gallons of milk. When the milkman read the note, he felt there must be a mistake. He thought she probably meant 1.5 gallons, so he knocked on the door to clarify the point.
The blonde came to the door and the milkman said, "I found your note to leave 15 gallons of milk. Did you mean 15 gallons or 1.5 gallons?"
The blonde said, "I want 15 gallons. I'm going to fill my bathtub up with milk and take a milk bath."
The milkman asked, "Pasteurized?"
The blonde said, "No. Just up to my tits."

Blonde On The Computer
Q: How do you know if a blonde has been on your computer?
A: There is lipstick on the joystick.

Bruise Easily
Q: Why do blondes have bruises around their belly-buttons?
A: Because blonde guys aren't too smart either.

I wana go blonde at first...but nah..forget it..hahahaa!!!

lambat setapak

2005-06-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

miss thai won da best national costume...thumbs up for her!!!

miss indon...fuyoo top 15 doksss

hmmm...da color should be more elegant arr..so far so gd...

ms china..reminds me of a gal who works in a brothel..pardon my werds arrr

ohh so swet lah ms vietnam...like her costume...

won da ms photogenic...our ms philippines...mcm mary poppins gitu

okies...doesn't mean ur country is da most developed one..ur costume also changes with time lah..I wana see ur freaking kimono lah!!

miss korea trying hard to inflate...kekekee

haizzz..gettg worse lah...i still dun understand ur concept!! me so sorriiii.......

i wana put this last coz I have several reasons to make...da costume sux big tyme...the sanggul melayu was damn pathetic! da make-up sux too...shuld hire me next time lah...me so sorriii again for da 2nd time...

sorrii lah..lambat setapak...malas nak update siang2...kekekee
GTG!!!

ECP

2005-06-04T15:57:00.000+08:00

wooaaahhh....

hehehe...my cap improved by 0.05...my efforts are paid off..yeah...BUT...still below 3..ahaks!!! But nvm, me very happy that I will not repeat any mods for this sem...my thai mod was a sad thing for me arr..B-...haizzz...so sad..guess I was too overconfident for it..but who cares...

later me having chalet..hehe..at ECP...yahoo...shahidah's goin to new zealand at the end of june...Best luck to you gal!!! hehee...but dun forget us da 6 Jahanams tau...u noe who we are lah!

me so gona overnite beside da sea end enjoying da breeze wif gad and asiri...hmmmmmmmmmmmmm *no dirrtty tots arr

Music at the moment: When you're Gone~Bryan Adams & Melanie C

keikhlasan itu mulia

2005-05-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

few more weeks to PB...more weeks to FOC...jobless and penniless...duit tusyen aku nak kat abes!!! my hair gettg longer..yahooo! miss her lotsss...saper lagik? hahaha...

stress dokiess with dikir and tarian for PB...me being a faci for PB? no way man..hate kids..esp frm age 10-12!!! Creatures..most suitable for them..hahaha...

damn..movie screening soon on da 24th June @NUS..pls plss..come n support our fund raising thingy for our FOC arr...4 movies worth only 10bux..concept: romance, comedy and horror...we are inviting at least 300 peeps to come and watch wif us...Spread da word mamas!!!

well, after reading this email from this particular gerl..ehem2..haizzz...i dun tink I wana click with her arr easily...scary dok..she's not that open-minded arr..susah arr..nak rapat this kind of sweet-looking-demure gal..hehee...alah sapelah nak aku kan? haizz...ader perasaan suka..tapi blum terbuka lah hati utk wahai si gadis itu...hehehe...pelan2 kayuh lah cik abang zahdan...

hush2...me gettg a role for ilsa's next big dance...titled 'macbeth-unmasked'..this coming 280805..so come down and support too k? Ilsa together wif gamelan and dance ensemble..gona be a big hit..hehehe...for ya info..it's a dance thingy..not a play!!! Get this right.....

Life gona stinks soon...y? results dae on 2nd june..gosh how unwell have I done for those papers? aku takmu tapao siolsss...i juz wana go to yr 2 wif ease..plus long freaking hrs in da lab in da future...haizzz!!! plus labbie reports!!! arrgghhhh....

K lah GTG as usual...suk tarian plus tarian plus lunchie wif gad and gang..hehehe...plus dikir plus meetings plus..chalet plus..plus..plus.......
i can see numbers now..............in my freaking brain...

crapping in my sleep later arr....hmmmmmmmmm horse better than zebra?
i like animals wif stripes.....hehehe *evil laughter*

Music at the moment: Dangdut is The Music of My Country~Project Pop

pissed off

2005-05-28T17:06:00.000+08:00

CIBOOOOOOOOOONGGGGGGGG!!!!

me 'carrie underwood' entry was deleted...fucking heLL...who da hell did that?

dun tell me it's ME?? I'm not that dumb yet...

arrgghhh...freaking long entry and it's gone just like that....

I hate u bloggie..son of a BITCH!!!

misha

2005-05-27T02:04:00.000+08:00

Artis : Misha Omar

Lagu : Riwayat Cinta

Taa... Taa... Taa...

Hoo... Emm...

Gerhana

Yang melanda

Seluruh alam semesta

Dunia gelap tanpa cahaya

Begitulah hatiku terasa

Ohh...

Siapa

Yang relai

Bernafas dalam derita

Membiar perasaan menjadi sengsara

Dicengkam sedih yang tak terduga

Ke mana

Hilangnya keindahan

Yang inginku damba

Diselimut rasa sepi keseorangan

Dihiris kelukaan

Sentuhanmu yang pertama

Bagaikan madu menyiram asmara

Tapi itu hanyalah kepalsuan

Tersingkir aku didalam khayalan

Perlukah aku bercinta?

Andai hidup berteman air mata

Biarkan saja aku bersendiri

Usah kau memandang wajahku lagi

Ohh...

Sesungguhnya

Tiada jalan teduh untuk bersama

Ku rela kepedihan menjadi luka

Berakhirlah riwayat cintaku

Woh...

Sentuhanmu yang pertama

Bagaikan madu menyiram asmara

Tapi itu hanyalah kepalsuan

Tersingkiraku didalam khayalan

Perlukah aku bercinta?

Andai hidup berteman air mata

Biarkan saja aku bersendiri

Usah kau memandang wajahku lagi

Sesungguhnya

Tiada jalan teduh untuk bersama

Ku rela kepedihan menjadi luka

bdae bash @far east

2005-05-20T16:18:00.000+08:00

tgk maner tu abg fezzal...

me and bez bud: gaddie...OooPppSS

focus peeps..focus on my tiny winnie and tigger...hahaha

'may' babies of da century...L-R: 14,18,21,16

my 22nd bdae @sakura restaurant wif beloved wacko peeps...hahaa..thanx for da free food..ahaaks!

it's been a great dae wif ya guys man...thanx for da free food @sakura (remember cumshots) and oreo cheesecake...been da best dae of my life seriusly...enjoy da pics!!!

Music at the moment: She's Hot~TOK

3J wif a big bang!

2005-05-20T01:14:00.000+08:00

after da whole clubbing..shag-a-lulu sia...

nuovo...nuovo..nuovo....

our dikir during da cultural nite~ dikir putera...how lame can it be..hahaha...

luv dis pic alot arr..ngan our mak bapak angkats..tak leh ang..juz kidding!

in da terowong..towards da anak sungai...gombak, selangor

took a photo wif these nasyid boys arr...dats us..da 14 of us!!

22 already goin to 23 next year

2005-05-18T02:27:00.000+08:00

wat a dae today...honestly speaking...today's fun and memorable..my belated bdae celebration wif my fav ex-basic-maths peeps at sakura restaurant..followed by chilling outside @far east plaza..eating away da oreo cheesecake..yummy!!! got a pair of metallic bracelet..haha...same pair like horis's too..haizz...lovely tigger and winnie da pooh..da mini ones..haha..personal joke behind those twos..haha..oh gosh..i really can't stop laughing now...and two lovely boxers!! thanx ppl...luv ya all..haha...

da nite before..wif my dearest beid and adah..accompanied me thruout da boring bdae nite..haha...celebrated at starbux tamp..but i really enjoyed this whole 22nd bdae thingy arr...da best among da rest!!!..hehee....the 12 midnite sharp before...lepaks kat bawah blok ngan fik, linsy and myra..thanx for all da sweet food...haizz...aper lagi nak ckp eh...

ya lah...da whole 3J trip (09/05-15/05)was a joyous one man...haizz..too much to sae...well, da the first 3 days @rebutia camp, gombak, selangor were a torturous one lah...plus kinda religious too...'berzikirlah adik2'..hahaha...though can be a bit too emotional on dat part..my tanduk still attached arr to my head..masuk hutan kluar hutan..hud..huddddddddddd....hoohoo...kg dorani, kuala selangor...was a memorable one arr..although aku was 'anak yatim piatu'...meaning no mak bapak angkat to take us all 4 in....but we got to stay in our lovely kampung chalets..2 peeps each..above da sawah padi...fuyooo tak leh ang kauzzz...hehehe...fishing in da morning, can't be bothered arr pasal lama nak tunggu dpt ikan..went cycling all by myself along da straight road...hahaha...then proceed to batik painting..i guess mine's da worse arr..black rose, dead leaves..pink polka dots all over the batik..but hey it's a gift to my mum tau...and she said it was damn lovely...me so touched arr..hahaha...

the 2nd last dae...KL trip...aiyoh..so rushing arr..wif my dearest 'mintuds'..OOPPSS..hahaha..nura, siti, and yana...they are da best 'tawarers' lah...sanggup tawar sampai 8RM from 10RM for a fake watch...nway me bought two arr..hahaa...
dat nite was da best of da best!!!...clubbg at nuovo wif 8 gals..and 4 guys incld myself...pic attached later part lah...RnB music filled da atmosphere...fuyoo...gereksss dok!!!
i have to sae all of us are actually pretty gd dancers...grooving to da songs non-stop...hmmmmmmmmmmm....hahahaa!!!

wow pretty long blog...dah sleepy seh...later got 1st workshop at bishan CC...our 1st ever PBM production..cum lah and join us!!!
aku cuma tolong2 jerr...hehehee...

*to be continued

nitey nitessss!!!

Music at the moment: Galang Gal~TOK

soccer blunder

2005-05-16T15:18:00.000+08:00

The Sins

A woman is having an affair during the day while her husband is at work.Her nine-year-old son comes home unexpectedly, sees the illegal lovers and hides in the bedroom cupboard to watch.

Then the woman's husband unexpectedly comes home. She hides her lover in the cupboard, not realising that her little boy is in there already.

The little boy says: "Dark in here."

The man says: "Yes, it is."

Boy: "I have a soccer ball, do you want to buy it?"

Man: "No, thanks."

Boy: "My dad's outside, I'll call him if you don't buy it!"

Man: "OK, how much?"

Boy: "$250-00."

A few weeks later it happened again and the boy and the lover were in the cupboard together again.

Boy: "Dark in here."

Man: "Yes, it is."

Boy: "I have soccer boots."

The lover, remembering the last time, asks the boy: "How much?"

The boy says:"$750-00."

The secret lover says: "Fine, I will buy them."

A few days later, the father says to the boy: "Grab your ball and boots,let's go outside and have a game."

The boy says: "I can't, I sold them for $1000."

The father says: "That's terrible to overcharge your friends like that.....$1000 is way more than those two things cost.I'm going to take you to church and make you confess your sins."

They go to church and the father makes the little boy sit in the confession booth and he closes the door.

The boy says: "Dark in here."

The priest says: "Don't start that sh*t again!"

'Jiwaku harus bertenaga...'

2005-05-08T01:24:00.000+08:00

Malaysian IdoL~Jaclyn Victor~GemiLang

Sejuta bintang menyanyi
Ku di antara yang satu
Mungkin cahaya dan impianku di sini gemilang

Laluku redah onak duri di lautan api
Kemuncaknya inginku tawan, aku jelajahi
Kini kemuncak ini seharus pastiku genggam
Gemilang suara keyakinan kian dalam
Gementar harus jangan
Jiwaku harus bertenaga
Mungkinkah ini menjadi impianku

Laluku redah onak duri di lautan api
Kemuncaknya inginku tawan, aku jelajahi
Gemilang itu semakin pastiku genggam
Gemilang suara keyakinan kian dalam
Gementar harus jangan
Jiwaku harus bertenaga
Mungkinkah ini menjadi realiti

Gemilang... realiti...

Wooaaahh wat a damn freaking shiookkk song!!! Simply irresistable!!! Meowwwwwwwwwww..

sad love poem

2005-05-07T17:06:00.000+08:00

I wanted to love you,
But I was just too scared.
Haunted by the past,
That always seemed to reappear.

I tried my best to run and hide,
But I just couldn't get you off my mind.
Should I give love a second chance?
Or am I just wasting my time?

You promised you were different,
But so did the rest.
Then you looked into my eyes,
And I knew you had passed the test.

So I took a chance,
and fell deeply in love.
Maybe this is what I've been looking for,
That special kind of love from above.

God, how can this be true?
Everything is happening so fast.
But something keeps telling me,
I've found true love at last.

by Megan McMichael

Music at the moment: Superwoman~Karen White

2 jam bersama 3J...

2005-05-06T01:58:00.000+08:00

had my last meetg at yih student lounge..standard procedure perr..dah lah panjang lebar..hahaa

tak sabar seh nak gi m'sia wif my pals..not really lookg forward to rebuttia camp..haha...dreadful for all the adventure thingy arr..can I be excused for it plss?? hehehe...

i'll be back on 15th may evening..so da next day..hint2...ahakzz..saper yg paham..bagus arr...

now I can relax my mind abit...exams are over for me..though tmr's really da last day for those unfortunates..hehee..juz wait for my results...*fingers crossing*

'keje' is a must...to accompany me for da next 3 mths..though i'll be packed wif lotsa tuitions, tarian, meetgs here and there..but too bad..I really need da cash sia..I'm so sorry kalau i macam menghilangkan diri from ya guys..I have to sia..need to save my daily allowances...my freaking legal action letter dah sampai pun...
Fuckg M1...damn I'm so gonna stick to my pre-paid starhub...more control wif the hp...haiizzz

GTG..like wat i always said to my frenz...so long, take care and MuAXX...eewwww...dats so not zahdan!!!

Music at the moment: When will I be Loved~Carrie Underwood

sleepyhead

2005-04-28T00:40:00.000+08:00

i dun like today..but i love da evening...

amirah's back wif a great smile and curve..ooppsss...her tummy grows...
(dat does not imply she's pregnant)

she's sweet yet lame...my butt still grabs dat 2nd place..GOSH!!!

Law sux to da core...din finish..haizzz...need at least a C+ for it...I really can't write essays!!!

2 more to go...but I'll enjoy my weekend wif beloved frenz soon..hmmm lemme think...clubbing? lepaking and overniting at east coast? screwing chicks? selling my big fat arse? waklu u guys man................

okies okies..stop whining zahdan....go straight ahead and turn urself in now!!!

one two three.......................................BaNG!!!

I miss you darling.....NOT I.M for goodness sake...

Outzzz...

P/S: 2 more weeks to rebutia, kg doraini and KL.....

hate 1103

2005-04-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

for the time being..hehe...insyaallah..I'll try to avoid my msn,blog,'porn'..hahaha..and anitg else that can really interrupt my studyings..yeah rite bro...

well..fri's da killer paper..physical chem..i still dun noe whether I can scrap thru it or not...really not expectg a gd grade for it..but I'll try my very best arr...coz my tests were 'rabakzz'...haizzz...
followed by Law and Malay society (my fav)...organic chem and lastly on da 4th may,
my thai lang paper...must go all da way for it...

Nutg much to update..coz kiter maner ader life..exam nak kat dtg...hahaha
well ydae, went to Expo..watched danceworks05, met ana and her bf, anita, suriani...
taufik and his members, WhaK won da champion..dah nampak sah seh...better than da rest..lolx...

gotta be silent soon...........for the next two weeks...argghhhhh

pas tu I'll update ya guys regardg my M'sia trip wif da PBM guys and gals...Chiaoo loh...

biatchling of a biatch

2005-04-14T18:01:00.000+08:00

okie okie...I'll cut my hair soon...well most probly end of this yr...I guess so...

ppl dun like me having 'ekor babi' or 'ekor kuda'...wateva lah shit..I've been hearg of so many commnets these days...pants gettg too tight lah..butt gettg too big..so my fault arr...wat da freak u guys thinking of actually...

nway I have to say that I do look like a girl frm behind esp frm the hair behind arr...ewww...self-confession from me...thanx to my fren arr...she recorded this short movie thingy inside a pantry room..ohh gosh..'he' scares the shit outta me...hahaa.....freaked out by 'myself'...hahaa..sooo belooo of me sia...

damn...one more week to shitty exams shitoss..gotta buck up for this time...hopes are free everywhere...but the will to open up these notes is just not there anymore...really miss da gd old times wen we juz stepped into NUS for the 1st time...hmmmmm...miss that feeling though...

nvm...yr 2 shall be a new yr for me arr...'step siak aku nie...lum strt exam dah bual2 nak masuk yr 2'...hehehe....insyaallah...everything will go well for me and ya guys too...

Regarding I.M...for those who know...and those who wish to find out...nahh...da feeling still not there yet for me arr..tak tau asal...hmm...juz because selalu jumpa muka dier..hehe..obviously tat doesn't mean me 'muak' wif her face or wat...maybe hati I lum terbuka lagi kot!!! hahaha...telo malaysia siolzzz....no offence...

hmmm..juz wondering wat makes a guy turn gay...and a gay turn into a really freaking irritating gay?
(gender studies next sem anyone?)

Music at the moment: Berhenti Berharap~Sheila on 7

wadeva

2005-04-09T02:40:00.000+08:00

simply un-vogue of myself with da blue-da-ba-dee cap

tsk tsk tsk

2005-04-09T02:37:00.000+08:00

din noe I was that 'famous' in school or among my frenz....tot it was a cliche...
kinda proud of it...mcm dlm dean's list gitu...hehee...
the sight of it actually turned me off arr...@ first glance...but now..me readily accepting it...
am i really that himboic till my frenz cam dah masak wif my attitude?? damn i gotta change man..it's not that i wana be like that..maybe a bit slow..can't help it...
gosh wat's actually happening to me man...skejap slow skejap dumb skejap....haizzz..
gettg too much man...

see..me starting to digress...i haven complete my first few statements...too much stuffs running in my mind now...

yet nuraini asking me out again...y??? ur bdae cuming soon, I know..go and find sum1 else to celebrate wif ar...I can't be ur bf for gdness sake...5 yrs gap...buat dosa jerrr...

nway bout the first part...me quite surprised...hush2...i heard that I actually won second in a so-called contest..tak sangka...hahaha...bitch u guys man.....

ingat kalau menang ruper okie arr...tapi siallah...it's freaking not lor....

1st: Nurshahidah
2nd: Md Zahdan
3rd: ?????

Peraduan pantat jack...................big butt contest........................

F*** lah!!!

Conclusion: time to lose my freaking pounds...cut my hair reallllllyyyyyyy soon...

Music at the moment: Mr Lonely (Akon) >>>>>>> u shuld go and dwnload!!! It's da best song I've ever heard...........

lost without you

2005-04-02T17:41:00.000+08:00

baby when you're gone i realize i'm in love
the days go on and on and the nights just seem so long
even food don't taste that good - drink ain't doing what it
should
things just feel so wrong - baby when you're gone

i've been driving up and down these streets
trying to find somewhere to go
ya i'm lookin' for a familiar face but there's no one i know

this is torture - this is pain - it feels like i'm gonna go
insane
i hope you're coming back real soon -cuz i don't know what
to do

Bryan Adams - When You're Gone Lyrics

misbitching

2005-04-01T16:50:00.000+08:00

mari kita bergoyang....mari kita bergoyang...

ruffedge's singing in my fren's lappie...cool ibook..hehehee...

smell of da room making me sleepy..supposedly wana study for phy chem....haizzzz...

movie outing later wif my chem guys...'be cool'...heard it was a cool movie...

luv this room...2 beds...frenz's sleeping soundly....when's my turn..too bad on da floor dude..hahaha....

less than 22 days to go for my 1st paper...the exam fever again....i hate it....

gotta strive for the best wif my buddies...

a fren in need is a fren indeed....

sawatdii khrap....

ceen khrap...phop kan may khrap....

p/s: Happy April Fool's Day

Music at the moment: Goyang~Ruffedge

miss rembau so much

2005-03-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

go back liao..ayin and farhan..I am so childish here...

farah and hakim..simply adore their irritatingness..

rambutan tree beside my kampung

road less travelled

so kecoh...mass birthday?

ain't he cute..wana bite him!!! ~lil cuzzin amin shakir~

seeing into my loved ones' eyes...

sista and I (so loving) hahaha

colgate depromoter

2005-03-17T16:25:00.000+08:00

nice to chew..yum yum

apalah arti mencinta?

2005-03-13T00:07:00.000+08:00

Cobalah Untuk Setia

Apalah maumu kasih, kau pilih diriku di dalam hidupmu
Nyatanya kulihat ini, tak bisa kau coba untuk setia
Sudah cukuplah sudah, kumemberikan waktu
Kau selalu tak bisa mencoba untuk setia...

Yang selalu kuinginkan, yang selalu kunanti
Kau coba untuk mengerti, apalah arti mencinta
Dan harus kau sadari, bila ingin bersamaku
Jangan coba kau ingkari, cobalah untuk setia...

Masihkah aku diinginkan, masihkah aku didambakan
Masihkah ada waktu untukmu bersamamu, akankah kujalani hidup...

Dan harus kau sadari, bila ingin bersamaku
Jangan coba kau ingkari, cobalah untuk setia...

By Kris Dayanti

*nice,sappy song....makes me dream more of her...haizzzz **winkzz

green

2005-03-12T14:26:00.000+08:00

wen it's about time to ORD..U can't be bothered wif army anymore..but sumtimes U juz wana be in the army forever and freak off wif schoolwerkssss!!!

thanx fez

2005-03-12T13:19:00.000+08:00

thanx dear for REVAMPING my blog..hehe..but i kinda miss my tagboard arr...no fuss about it gal..But hey I really love the layout..esp the black color..fuyoo...

wat title shuld i give to this dearest blog of mine?

think, think, think....

Music at the moment: Saturday Night Divas~Spice Girls

pic paints thousand words

2005-03-09T17:27:00.000+08:00

i simply love this pic man...

berzapin @le meridien hotel

sweeet pic wif our ex-pressie...luv ya all dudes and dudettes

ewww..too much make up..wat da heck!!

me and my inang partner: zuraini

before performance...

presenting the ilsa dancers

breathless

2005-03-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

sometimes I juz wana be a gd dancer juz like others..

time doesn't permit me to do so...haizzz

2 more days to my performance @meridien hotel..

still in my hot pants and singlet...legs feeling numb as usual!

steps are still fresh in my freaking mind..and come on I did this so many times...and yet still not confident..haiiizzz

Gotta buck up lah zahdan..too much time spent on cca..hehe...wat a failure!!! some more chem is my forte...hahaha..but nvm i shall prove others wrong...
no confidence at all for CM 1131...

so far my life still been the same...always feeling groggy in da mornings...and shagged at nite...readings at my lap in mrt...music always stuck in my head!!!

no life bro.........and I'n not a stupid guy to fall in love with you! Case closed...

~sad but still 'happy' zahdan~

Music at the moment: I Still Believe~Mariah Carey